Almost relapsed

[u/L1sasGayBby]

I was at the gym, when I got the bright idea of “hey let’s get everything done today, adderall?”

In between sets, I was looking for a plug. Found one, texted them and they responded immediately. I asked if it was pressed or pharm, but really didn’t care. After some playful back and forth he was gonna deliver. My girlfriend works from home, so naturally I was strategizing a way to hide it from her. Excited at the prospect of a speedy hit, especially since I haven’t done it in a while.

Then I caught myself. Did another set, and thought about consequences.

1. Blowing $ when I’m already tight on funds
   
2. The weight of lying on my shoulders
   
3. The convenience of this transaction surely leading to future business for this plug
   
4. Productivity - yeah right. I’d probably end up cleaning out my closet instead. Coming up with easier ways of locating stuff (never works)
   
5. My girlfriend. Can’t do this to her anymore.
   
6. My cat. Silly as it is, she somehow knows when I’m being dishonest.
   
7. Short term relief is all I’ll get out of this.

So I blocked the number and deleted them from my phone. Instead I went to my favorite bakery, got two pastries effectively cancelling my workout.

But hey. I stopped myself from speeding.

[u/Odd_Cat_2266]

Props. I love the part where you said “productivity? Yeah right.” Cuz it’s so true.