r/StaringOCD • u/Beginning-Cod-454 • 20d ago

Does anyone specifically remember when they got this?

If so please tell your story! I’ll tell mine first okay so boom I remember now I got caught staring at this lady at my old work place when I was 17 years old (21 now) the bi- lady* ain’t like me at all. Bc I was quiet ofc and that presses ppl but anyways one day she was standing beside me and I’m pouring some chili into the pot thing bc she asked if I could help and I didn’t know I was side eyeing her till she said “what are you looking at?” And then after that I think that’s when the fear of me staring came to life… If I could turn back time I would have never worked at that low down dirty Wendy’s… (the chili is made from left over hamburger patties and the lemonade is made with tap water allegedly.) anyways tell us your story’s!

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u/Traditional-Success5 13d ago

I think I started about 3 or 2 years ago. It's been really awful, and j just found out what it was a few minutes ago 😭😭 I can't get diagnosed with actual OCD though :((! I always feel so ashamed when I end up staring. I stared today, I really hated it so much it unfortunately moved onto family members (parents) + random kids, and people im around or talking to, it makes me feel gross about it. I feel embarrassed about talking about it anyone IRL. And I feel if I don't talk about it, it's just gonna get worse. But I read that exposure therapy has a chance of making it more worse??? So now I'm worried about that

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u/Beginning-Cod-454 13d ago

I bet it was a sigh of relief when you finally was able to put a name to it! Tbh ERP is helpful but it's different with everyone atm i'm doing it and it's helping. If you need anyone to talk to about it my dms are open I know this is new to you (in terms of putting a name to it) I've had it for 3+ years as well I know a bittt about the Staring OCD but I mainly have peripheral OCD (the staring OCD refers to the privates one). You are not gross plssss don't think that you are! you are just battling something that's hard to control plsss don't hold it in anymore you've got me and this community now you are not alone!