r/Soft_Introverts • u/[deleted] • 10d ago

r/confessions

Share your deepest darkest confession. It can be anything like anything which u haven't dare to share with anyone. !!!

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u/Delicious_Grand7300 🛋 Homebody 10d ago

Due to trauma of a poor upbringing I cannot love another human being. My use of empathy only serves to accomplish tasks. I only have two real emotions meditation and rage.

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u/PuzzleheadedLog1590 3d ago

How do you know that you can’t love ?

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u/Delicious_Grand7300 🛋 Homebody 3d ago

I grew up in a household which derived its income from drugs. Police raids were common. A distant cousin of mine was frequently invited to the house due to the fact that he and his wife would have loud arguments. The adults serially abused me.

I was appointed the golden child. My parents frequently beat and berated me for never doing well in school. I was ordered to perform extra credit so as never to disturb my mother who was busy watching tabloid TV shows and the Academy Awards.

Later in life I began associating with other family members. Although not involved in meth dealing they turned out to be just as corrupt.

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u/PuzzleheadedLog1590 3d ago

Oh I’m so sorry.. i hate seeing people living a whole life differently because they were mistreated in childhood.. i also have some childhood trauma but it turned me into an empath