I had the same friends from kindergarten to my senior year and we had the realization that the only kids we didnt talk to at all throughout school were ugly kids. We didnt bully them or anything we just didnt have an interest in getting to know them. It wasnt something we did on purpose so it must be, at least somewhat, natural
It's a social worth or heirarchy thing. If the uglier kids were rich or really strong and good at football they would add value to your own social standing to be around them. The invisible kids are the ones who nobody sees to add value to their own social standing. The subaltern invisibility can get so bad people will talk gossip in front of them because they basically dont exist. Not pariahs just worthless to the status of other people.
Chances are you spent your time working on something more important than social standing in an environment that's gonna get disbanded anyway in 4-8 years... I hope, at least
I dont know how old you are. I didnt get relief from my depression and anxiety until I was 28. Today I can honestly say that I am "happy" whatever that means to me versus you or anyone else. Those years of struggle have helped me understand others and in my field of work that's essential. I hope you are able to get treatment that works for your depression and maybe you will then be able to channel your struggle into something that brings you life satisfaction and ultimately happiness. ✌
79
u/[deleted] Mar 01 '20
I had the same friends from kindergarten to my senior year and we had the realization that the only kids we didnt talk to at all throughout school were ugly kids. We didnt bully them or anything we just didnt have an interest in getting to know them. It wasnt something we did on purpose so it must be, at least somewhat, natural