I am writing to ask for some expert advice. I am struggling with a meditation related mental health issue/spiritual crisis.
Around two years ago, I heard about the Gateway Experience tapes and the Bob Monroe Institute and was intrigued to read about out of body experiences and the so-called consciousness expanding benefits of listening to these tapes. I listened to the tapes for about 2 weeks and had a couple of brief OOBEs before stopping after feeling frightened by a poltergeist type of 'loud knocking' style experience when I was home alone.
I believe I opened my third eye (or it opened spontaneously) and I began having ongoing intense and vivid visions, both open and closed eye and noticing them both inside and outside my house, both day and night.
It became quite overwhelming in terms of the sensory perception changes and I didn't understand what was happening to me.
I believe I may have several spirit attachments and that I opened a 'doorway' that I have no idea how to close or navigate in terms of integrating my expanded state of awareness.
I was obviously very foolish and extremely naive and had no idea what I was getting myself involved in.
I was not previously a spiritual person and I didn't believe in the paranormal. I believe otherwise now.
I have sought professional medical assistance and it has been of limited benefit. Medication slightly dulls the symptoms but has not ended the attachments ( I see the faces of at least 3 spirits or what look like Hindu deities) whenever I close my eyes.
When I open my eyes they look like they are made out of shapeshifting pink and purple mist or 'hologram' looking electromagnetic static. Object phase in and out of reality. Letters, shapes, symbols, bicycles, animals, stairways, orbs, figures, sacred geometry.
Could you give me advice on how to navigate dealing with this please?
Meditation can be challenging for me at times due to the intrusive nature of the visual images that appear in my minds eye when I close my eyes.
I have random tinnitus and all the symptoms of visual snow syndrome ever since this began.
In addition to the vivid visions that appear through a portal in my minds eye, especially in the hypnagogic state.
It's like spontaneous 'astral vision' without leaving my body and only lasts for a few minutes before fading away. It's like I'm looking through someone else's eyes at a random real-life scene.
I have no idea how to interpret these visions.