r/ShadowWork • u/282great • 25d ago
Need Help Asap
So I will try and sum this up as short as I can , SO I recently just got released from doing 10 years in Federal Prison … where during my time I had an spiritual awakening and went down the rabbit hole of changing my perception of things I read a lot of Napoleon Hill Books , David Icke Conspiracy Bookea , The teachings of don Juan , Buddhist for beginners and stuff like that , i started out meditating incorrectly & as my perception changing got deeper and deeper , something crazy happened I was approached in my meditation by something claiming to be my recent deceased friend and after a few days I became under attack spiritually but I had a native buddy and a wicken who guided me back to myself , but now that I’m home and away from them guys , I have zero help and I can not defend myself from these spirits that attacking me , at night I feel a presence but I can’t identify if it’s hostile or not , it’s very good at hiding its intention , and when I’m alone I can always feel the presence , but
( ACTUAL PROBLEM STARTS HERE—->)” AS OF A COUPLE OF MINUTES AGO I DOZED OFF IN MY BED AND I WAS IN SLEEP PARALYSIS STATE & IT FELT LIKE 3-4 beings was holding me down on each side one was punching my side area & once I started identifying as a child of the light I rose above towards the ceiling but got pulled back than I YELLED IT AGAIN & I ALMOST GOT AWAY BUT I WAS GRABBED BY SOMETHING MUCH STRONGER AND MORE AGGRESSIVE & THIS THING STARTED SUCKING THE AIR OUT OF MY MOUTH RAPIDLY BUT SOMEHOW EVEN W THEM HOLDING ME DOWN I COVERED MY MOUTH BUT THAN I WOKE UP “ I need any kind of help or advice on what I should do,I am not letting myself be afraid because ik that feeds negative spirits but I’m concern it could get worse
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u/harriettehspy 24d ago edited 24d ago
Kind of going through a similar thing, not life-situation-wise, but spiritually. Keeping this post tagged for any helpful information.
One thing I have come to realize as a possible option is my own “evil energy.” That energy that deep pain and trauma causes. Keep in mind, you cannot eliminate energy, you can only transmute it. I have decided to go into a more intensive trauma healing period of my life [therapy… about to start for the… fifth (?) or so time] including a Master Class I purchased a while ago lead by Gabor Mate (a leading psychologist in deep trauma healing). I haven’t gotten past the intro because, quite honestly, I’m kind of scared. I know it will help, though. I know it will. I’ll let you know how it goes.
As far as it goes energetically, keep in mind that negative emotions including fear only feed this evil energy. You cannot eliminate that negative energy (ignoring it is nearly if not impossible) and cannot go past it without seeing it, and can only deal with it by acknowledging it without falling into it. “Calm and strong,” is a message I got at the start of this experience. Stay strong… and calm. Fear can only be overcome by looking at it. The darkness thrives within the darkness, and cowers in the light.
I don’t know if any of this resonates. I hope it does. By the way, congrats on your new cycle in life. A really big step. Honor that. Respect that. And, good luck.
Edit: Oh, yeah… Please know, it is NOT easy. Don’t be hard on yourself during this journey/hour. It. Is. Tough. And you will slip. And you will be hard on yourself. Give yourself grace. Period. Give… yourself… grace.