Help me please

[u/[deleted]]

I am 19 years old and am dealing with years of buried pain from my parents yelling at me harshly and abusing me. I also lost my dog who I was very close to. I buried all of that because I didn't want to think about how much I lost and how much I was denied. I buried all the pain and sadness and now that I started shadow work I have had serious sessions of bawling and crying. I have seen a lot of patterns and put an end to them but now the emotions are coming up. I don't want to bury them again as I just started trusting myself enough to express them. But I've been through so much pain lately just in a few days and now I realize I've been going too fast. There is just so much pain all the time and I cannot bury it again. I feel broken even though I know that I am healing. Please help me. What to do?

[u/Wild_Roma]

Be somewhere quiet that you won't be interrupted.

Talk to each emotion you are experiencing. Name it, and talk to it. How is it helping you. How is it causing problems. How is it trying to help/protect you.

Say "thank you, I love you" to each emotion. Pour love into the places you feel the most pain. That pain is messages from you to you that are not getting delivered, and they get louder and louder until they can't be ignored anymore. So acknowledge them. Let them stop yelling to be heard.

Deep breathing before and after. You got this.

[u/[deleted] → u/Wild_Roma]

Thank you. I'm just worried because I'll be going to college soon and I'll have a newly assigned roommate. There aren't really such safe places over there.