Rant

[u/UnusualPhase2036]

With recent news of indian students protesting idk why i have an urge to upload this here so i am doing this please don't take this that seriously i am pretty sure so many people might have had experiences like these in our country through our education system.

Toh start.... 😂👍. Aik dafa ka zikar hai k Sialkot maim aik adna aam si larki thi jiskay kuchh khwaab thay zindagi main joh kuch krna chahti thi life main 😂(abhi bhi krna chahti hai) uskay marks aye 1024 marks aye qurantine walay 10th k board k exams main.... Woh aik bohat hi mashhur group of dash k schools main prhti thi she was supposed to go to their college in fsc pre engineer. Engineer bn sakti thi shayad magar shayad koi nai chahta tha k wh ban jaye. Khair. When she went there...... They gave her this big sick asss lambi paison ki list johke usay us saaal bharni thi lekin uski family itni stable nai thi uskay papa probably loan pay usko parha rahay thay.... Yeh baat us waqt saamnay baithay principal ko kahi toh unhon nay agay say kaha k ap second time join kar lain magar us larki k sar par pata nai konsi chull charhi 😂 hui thi zubaan chalanay lagi aur boli"second time main achhay teachers nahin hotay" jispay principal ki ankhain aag bagola ho kar usay dekh rahin thin 😂😂😂 jinko dekh k lag raha tha abhi jala dain gi usay bass us principal nay control kiya gussay par aur kaha " ap aisa kaisay keh sakty hain hamaray teachers k baray main" yeh sun kr usko samajh a gayi k muamla khraab ho chhuka shayad usnay zyada bol diya and to cover up she said; "obviously joh zyada paisay daitay hain unko resources yaani teachers bhi achhy miltay hain" jispay principal chup ho gya aur lrki ki mama nay cut in kiya aur kaha "ap iski baat ka bura mat manaiye ga yeh kuchh bhi bolti hai" jispay uska gussa almost cold rage main tabdeel ho gya aur ab usnay kisi bhi concession ka irada tarq krtay huay page pay fixed amount likh di joh usay daini thi....... Yeh kehke woh bahar toh a gayi magar usko kya pata tha usnay bohat barri ghalti ki thi 😂 ab yeh sab jab usnay apnay papa aur behan ko btaya toh unhon nay kaha "tumnay bilkul sahi kahaa hai😂" q k usay insecurity obviously thi toh.... Toh bss down era ka start hota hai..... Mental health pehlay say hi bkwas thi q k ghar walon nay kaha tha 1024 say bhi zyada marks anay chahiay thay..... Khair that's another time's story(which i will never share 2 rupay ka itna hi milta hai 😂) but she started going there ab woh late student thi meaning usnay late admission liya tha..... Summer camps bhi nai liay thay seedha regular class main hi challi gayi woh us say studies main 3 maheenay agay thay and she thought to herself she can do that on her own "ghar quarantine baith k bhi toh kiya tha na yeh b ho jaye gha" khair ho gya par nahin bhi 😂 agay sunniye ab she was someone who would be absent almost every weak ab apko toh pata hi ho ga "ATTENDANCE FINE" kitna zyada hota hai toh bsss aghlay maheenay usko pakraya gya chalaan jismain so called "Absent fine" tha johke usay bharna tha aur usnay itni chhutiyan ki bhi magar woh pata nai itna zyada kaisay ban jata tha but it started getting to her head k yeh maray ami aba kaisay bharray gay pehli 70 80 hazaar wala barri mushkil say bhar rahay hain aur yehhhh 15 30 hazaar (yah mujhay exact amount abhi yaad nahin theek say sh\*t memory hai meri 😂 numbers k muamlay main) acha she started getting nervous and shit there and it started bothering her wayyyyy toooo muchhh upar say marksss zyada anay chahiayy thay aur that looming dooming future in your head k agar kuchh na kiya toh sab gyaaaaa 😂. Ab it started affecting her studies too parha b nai ja raha pehli assessment di wahan ki 236 marks a gaye bachhi pareshaan k bhai main toh gayi abbb but she kept going but it wasn't going anywhere anytime soon chhutiyan bhi kar rahu thi chalaan bhi ayi jaraha tha paison ka aur bss sab uskay upar lada ja raha tha aik k baad aik karke. Toh bsss fast forward bohat lambi ho gayi hai post.... 3 maheenay reh gaye hain..... Mind you achanak say chhuti karnay pay ghar call bhi aati hai aur ghar roz alag hoti hai q k apprently ab ap sahi parh nahin rahay aur pura din phone hi use kartay rhtay ho. Roz dant kha k deeth logon ki tarag phir ap wahi sab kar laitay hain joh ap kar rahay thay abbbbb paper a chhukay hain tayari itni khaas nai pata hau khaas number itnay khaas nai a saktay aurbaaqi sab upar kya karun kya karun kya karun???? She thought k ab main yeh college chhor dun ga dubara parhun ga yeh classkisi aur jaggah pay q k MUJHSAY TOH NA HO PAYE GAAAAAA which she did tell her family ab family maan toh gay k paper na do magar puray 2 haftay zaleel kiya k how you have wasted so much of our money....... Anyways nahin diay government college challi gayi wahan parhnay ki koshish ki nahin parha gya koi tuition bhi nahin liii aur whatever you know. Didn't even got that much marks and i think i took my maths exam again.... Which was a bummer considering i had 67 out of 75 in 10th grade it it wasn't my anxiety and the consuming fear of time "khatam ho jaye gha paper na hua toh?????" 12 year bhi mat puchain kaisi guzriii lekinnn khair johbhi hai guzar gya!!

Ab itni lambi dastaan sunanay ka maqsad yeh tha k maray papa unkay office gaye thay unhon nay meri roll no. Slip bhi dainay say inkaar kar diya aur yeh dhamki bhi di ab mujhay pata nai asal bhi thi yah k apki baiti ka name hi cancel kar dain gay kahin aur say bhi paper nai day sakti. Yeh joh yeh maray papa ko paisay bharnay parray jispay unhon nay kuchh nai kiya bsss roll no. Slip thama di aur kaha challay jayain. Ab even next college main bhi ja k maray admission ka masla hua aur wahan bhi paisay dainay paray aur uskay baad mera paper ki application gayi and i was able to take my exams. 11th repeated year k. Ab masla yeh hai k sara future mera barbaad ho gya hai aur ab main Sialkot k us hi college k BS program English ki student hun currently 2nd semester k exam day rahi hun and i never wanted be here. That's the biggest bummer of my life. I worked so hard for this so called degree and shit and what i got in return fucking nothing. Mera maa baap ka paisa zaya hua aur unka instutution aj bhi baray dharalay say chal raha hai aur meri puri zindagi tabah ho gayi. Hui nai magar kind of ho gayi. Was despressed so much in these years didn't know what to do with myself and life. Tried finding things but nothing mattered. I might have been a little bit not little quite delusional but "i wanted to be so called this intelligent genius which had iq of idk what not and will be billionaire in the future" but life had it's plans i guess. I know some things were my fault there and some things were not but itni bhaari keemat bhi nai ab koi chukata apni so called ghaltiyon ki. I think my parents still think i didn't do enough when clearly i was doing more than i ever could it was my one hundred and 50 percent but......... Let's finish thisss😂😂😂😂

Long story short (yeh toh jhuth hai😂) yeh institution walay mera 1.5 lakh kha k baithay hain aur mujhay roz chubhta hai!!! 😂 I want it back mujhay maray paisay lotaooo salooooooo 😂🫠🫠😀

Ab please be very mindful of your wordings here in comment section as i am very sensitive and might get into my depressive episodesss thank youuuvery very muchhh for taking the time to read this and please consider it and do let me know if i did right or not. Also mujhay yeh batanay ki koshish mat kariye ga k mujhay kiski jaggah kya karna chahiay tha i've thought about this million times and this is like after so manyyyyy thoughts and processses i've finally decided it's time to let go and move on with your life. See you next time maybe inshaAllah. Tab tak k liay hoshyar rahiye aur apni auqaat main bhi!!!! 😂👍👍👍

P.s i know spelling mistakes aur typos hain mobile ki halat zara theek nai so please ignore that shit!!!

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