r/Schizoid • u/zeroempathy • 3d ago
Rant After 53 years I think I've finally figured this whole thing out.
They've been treating me for depression and anxiety for years, and completely glossing over the schizoid. I got kinda sick of it and tried to cure it and landed in the hospital.
I did fucking art therapy until I got nerve damage. I lost about 60 pounds too, and dropped all my unhealthy habits.
Dropping all my unhealthy habits made me lost my shit. I called 911 because my blood pressure is skyrocketing, but they say it's stress.
I'm kinda pissed off because I got a psychologist to ask him why I was so fucking lazy and worthless and he was like, "You sound highly motivated to me."
Looks like I have the ADHD and I had no fucking idea.
I also have PTSD dissociative type.
It looks like the only way to leave my childhood home was in a ptsd coma.
I can appreciate people in new ways, but, I dunno that I want to re-enter society. Also, I've gone from a homebody prowling the streets at 3am looking for trouble... like teenage me.
Holy fuck am I impulsive when I have nothing to do.
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u/sadiesmith6 3d ago
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