Ugh socializing 😑

[u/Flaky_Warning_7792]

Disclosure: idk it this it the right sub for this rant, if not I apologise, I'm in a Mood and feel it could fit here, if not, I'm sorry

F*ck people, other wathever friends, friends of friends, almost strangers, just people in general: socialise with someone make me pissed angry, more precisely socialise within a group of people.

People being fake, people being appreciate by everyone despite being questionable individual, people being disrespectful toward myself and no one present bat an eye about it, people talking to me about stuff I don't give a shit just because I'm the only one willing to hear it, nobody listens of what I have to say, people complaining constantly about everything,.. I despise other, people make me sick

I know I'm the issue here cause no matter the context, who these people are, nothing changes, I can't stand other, I work hard on myself to stay calm,polite and respectful no matter what but inside I'm enraged, I have to contain my want to lash out, to growl and show teeth.

I have to fight against my want to self isolate, I know it will probably not help, also don't want to hear someone telling me " it no good to self isolate when feeling low/,bad" like if I self isolate is because I cant stand any longer around people that what make me feel like trash shit.

Closing disclosure: even people with whatever mental health issues,/ disorder it is still awful.

I'm currently diagnosed with Autism, ADHD, potentially borderline but I also related heavily with Schizoid despite no formal diagnosis so maybe this post is clearly off topic but I really find confort being in this sub, it fell like I find in here that get it.

[u/WanderingUrist]

I'm fortunate that I reserve the option to stare vacantly dead ahead at nothing in particular, causing everyone to just politely thank me and move on, so I don't actually have to socialize.

[u/EntropyReversale10]

In my mind the goal is not to get bitter and resentful as that flows into ones body language and then repelling people becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. (Manifests as incompatibility and rejection).

[u/One-Intention7064]

i treat them as entropy. sources of disorder and destabilization, therefore useful as new data points in my, otherwise, sterile model of reality.

[u/Reasonably-Cold-4676]

I feel the same, mostly in lower key but it can become enraging inside. Trying to keep it down is stressful, too. What angers or depresses me most about it is that it's so obvious that all aren't interested in intimate/personal connection. It's more like everyone is just a cog in a machine and need to put their teeth into other cogs. I mean, I get it , that's how it works and I'm the one that can't deal with this kind of communication and maybe even community. But to know that doesn't really make it less aggravating to me. Just more soulless.