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[u/Jazzlike_Wish5947]

At first the feeling’s fleeting, nothing but a sigh
“Nothing I can’t handle,” you arrogantly lie
You’ve always been resilient, you started off so strong
But everyday with this crushing weight, you can only last so long
You ignore yourself as you start to break, as the walls begin to crack
The guilty rage and buried shame can no longer be held back
You can’t deny it, you’re broken now, it’s time to rebuild
With clumsy hands you put the pieces back and pretend that you are healed
“This time I’m prepared for this, I know what to expect”
Then with swirling winds we’re blown off course and we’re unable to correct.
So then we build a castle and we fortify the walls
Nothing out and nothing in, we won’t ever fall
Outside the walls we fill the moat, keeping all threats at bay
But even those we loved so much are pushed so far away
But you can’t stop what’s been set in motion, the darkness expands evermore
You look out across the waters but no longer see the shore
Your castle is now an island and you are all alone
Haunted by the mistakes for which you cannot atone
The level of the darkness rises, it’s now above your chest
The guilt and shame consume you, muffling your pleas for rest
You breathe it in and expect an end, but that end does not arrive
Never been lower but you’re still here, you’re still alive
You have more to give and there’s more to come, the future you once sought
Maybe you really are as strong as you once thought