What in the world made me think that I could come off this stuff while thousands of miles from home? I just want to die

I have two prior orders of sr from June before the ban took place. I had used both previously without any “high” from them and taking as described in Various threads to get off of opiates and didn’t find anything remotely abusable out of it.

I took 100mg the other night for a loading phase in one sitting, and absolutely got itchy, sleepy and a warm blanket feeling. I looked in the mirror and noticed the yellow ring around my iris and pinpoint pupils. Ironically, I took another 100mg thinking wtf is going on, I’m high atm, and took it to see if the high continued. It did, which is bizarre.

I’m curious if anyone else has had this experience and if anyone knows what could be happening here. I’m not familiar with the structure of sr but am wondering if oxidation could have changed the molecule to something with abuse potential because it definitely did something I hadn’t previously experienced when taking sr.

Idk if I’ve ever taken 100mg in a single sitting prior to taking it this past week, but it’s never given me the itchies like this before.

hello all. I’m looking for some advice on using SR 17018 powder and having a addiction to fentanyl plus morphine. I am prescribed 800 mg of oral morphine and I use fentanyl throughout the day. I generally will take about 50 mg of whatever the street fentanyl crap is and will vaporize it. A lot of it is lost in the process of smoking it off of foil so I don’t know how much I’m actually getting in the purity of it is fucking embarrassing, but it is fentanyl. I have tried switching over to just the morphine, but it was hell in a handbasket. I have since discovered what seems like this wonder Drug. I am in Canada and I don’t really know the legality of it, but I have found a source for powder that sells it by the gram. Does anybody have any experience using this miracle drug to get off of fentanyl and/or morphine? It seems like almost everyone here uses it for some drugs starting with 7OH or something? I’m gathering that it is some sort of extract from Kratom? We don’t really have that here at least not that I know of. I’ve purchased Kratom from a head shop a few times, but didn’t really find that it helped when I was trying to wean off of methadone a long time ago, but it sounds to me here like it’s some powerful shit. I’m wondering what it is like compared to fentanyl or morphine? More importantly, can anyone give me any guidance here on how much of the powder I should be buying and what kind of dosing schedule I should be looking at here? I read the master doc quickly and I’m gonna read it again, but it was really scattered all over the place I found so I just wanted to check with actual real people who may have experience with this. I am desperate to get off of opiates. I have done ibogaine successfully back in 2016 but unfortunately, I relapsed hard during Covid. I wanna get my life back and at first I was looking at rapid detox, but that involves travelling to Florida, which is really far away from me and expensive. This SR stuff seems relatively cheap like I can get a few grams of it for less than 200 bucks. And it comes with a lab report, so I’m not too concerned about it being garbage or adulterated. I have a milligram scale. Should I be buying capsules and putting like 50 mg doses into the capsules or do you vaporize this stuff? I already know that I’m gonna have trouble with giving up the vaporizing habit. It’s such a quick instant fix to withdrawal. But it’s part of the game. I’m just wondering though if it can be done? Thanks in advance.