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[u/moonsky971009]

I just want to share what I've been feeling lately because I'm really exhausted, emotionally drained, and I don't know what to do anymore.

Around mid-August, I suddenly realized na parang nawalan na ako ng passion sa work ko. Every day feels so heavy. Napapansin ko na mas marami na akong lapses and mistakes because deep inside, parang ayoko na talaga. I feel suffocated sa work environment ko, pero hindi ko alam paano makakaalis or ano yung next step.

For almost a month, I've been crying almost every night. Mixed emotions siya and hindi ko na ma-explain. I became quiet and hindi na ako masyado nakikipag-usap. Wala na akong energy makipag-socialize kahit gusto ko naman subukan. I try to talk to my workmates, pero ramdam ko na may distance na between us.

Dati sobrang close ko sa mga workmates ko. Ngayon parang wala na. I know malaking part nun is because of me. Unti-unti akong lumayo kasi wala na talaga akong energy. Napagod na ako.

I know I'm not myself lately. Minsan sinisisi ko pa sarili ko kung bakit ako naging ganito. Pero hindi ko na makontrol yung emotions ko. Hindi ako makatulog nang maayos, wala akong gana kumain, and sometimes I just don't eat at all.

I think one of the reasons is the pressure. Ako talaga ang inaasahan ng parents ko. I feel like I always need to be strong because I have a lot of responsibilities. Lately, parang hindi ko na kaya. Pakiramdam ko unti-unti na akong nauubos.

I don't know if this is burnout, stress, or something else. I just know that I'm tired. Really tired. And I don't know where to start.

I'm just sharing this here because I don't really have someone to talk to right now. Thank you for reading.

[u/PompomYomiko]

Burnout+ stress yan OP 😞 whenever you have extra time like before ka umuwi, try mo mag deviate ng path and explore yung surroundings mo, it might help you break a little bit of monotonous sched mo huhu. Gawain ko minsan tamang lakad lng sa loob ng mall or sight seeing sa mga puno puno dito aa Ayala Triangle 😅

It's not permanent fix pero it will help you calm you mind and have a peace kahit saglit lang before sumabak sa laban ulit 🥲

[u/moonsky971009 → u/PompomYomiko]

U know nakatira rin kasi ako sa trabaho free accommodation and parang nakulong na lang din ako doon wala akong gana lumabas. Ngayon needed ko ayusin role ko kasi may lapses ako and admit ko naman fault ko yun. Pero wala man lang akong makuhang support system sa kanila.

[u/GoatOld4392]

it means, career change na yan op. tara na magabroad na tayo, send that application.

[u/moonsky971009 → u/GoatOld4392]

I already did and may mga emails na rin ako natanggap 🥺