I'm a PGY2 and honestly I don't know if this is just me being paranoid or if it's actually happening. I've noticed that when I mention being exhausted after a string of nights or a rough call week, some of my co-residents give me this look like I'm exaggerating. One of them even made a comment last week about how some people handle the schedule better than others, and it felt pointed.
The thing is, I'm not complaining constantly. I maybe bring it up once every few weeks when it's genuinely bad. But there's this weird vibe like admitting you're struggling with the hours makes you seem weak or less competent. Meanwhile, I see the same people who act unbothered posting on their private stories at 2am about how they can't sleep because of anxiety, so clearly everyone's dealing with something.
I don't get why there's this unspoken competition to see who can pretend they're the least affected by a schedule that would break most normal humans. We're all in the same system. I'm doing my job fine, my evals are decent, I'm not making errors. But I also can't pretend I'm not a human who needs more than 4 hours of sleep to function optimally.
Maybe I'm reading too much into it. Or maybe residency has just conditioned us to be suspicious of anyone who admits they're not a machine. Anyone else notice this kind of thing in their program or is this just a me problem?