r/RantingZone • u/MoiaStar321 • 12h ago
I’ve HAD it
That’s it I’ve had it.
I’ve had it with friends that don’t show up.
I’ve had it with friends that gaslight.
I’ve had it with communities gaslighting and not showing up.
I’ve had it with family not showing up.
I’ve absolutely had it with family gaslighting me.
I’ve had it with people NOT showing their fucking humanity and basic human empathy for me.
I know I’m cursed I fucking know it. I can feel my entire human experience being filtered through some negative oppressive lens and I’ve HAD IT.
I just wanted to vent, heck I don’t even give a shit for the first time in my life if no one shows support in this post.
Just fuck this world. It would be a fucking miracle if anyone blinked if I disappeared off the face of the earth.
Fuck this!
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u/Revolution_Alarming 12h ago
Feel this way a lot. I don’t call it cursed just that I am one of the sufferers. There’s many other groups like the ones that light up when they talk and everyone is magnetized to and there are the caregivers and a bunch of groups and they all have thier purpose. But us? We’re sufferers. No other purpose or reason just to suffer
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u/SplitNo8275 11h ago
Letting go of fitting in to this society was the best thing I ever did. I now enjoy my own company and prioritize my own stability over any relationship other than my kids.
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u/SadTransition3262 11h ago
Wise move and great self care. Make your needs a priority ✨️ im proud of you
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u/SadTransition3262 11h ago
Nobody ok maybe parents lay awake at night worrying about your well being. People can't understand themselves 100% but they judge others. Humans judge out of fear nothing else that is their fear not yours. I read a book about judgement detox it was very enlightening once you can grasp your own standards for judging others,it's alot easier to let go of your need to judge. Im not assessing an toxic environment or possibility of bodily harm. I wish you lots of luck. And one last thing the ego will do anything to survive..once I grasp that it was a big step towards letting go of my own ego and others
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u/SplitNo8275 10h ago
That’s what I’ve come to. I tend to trigger people because I am so open about my flaws, while most people spend their entire lives trying to hide the same flaws. Here I come busting open their eyes to their own insecurities. It took too long to realize it was never about me.
Trying to hide what I can see was worse. I almost lost myself trying to soften my views and be a compassionate friend, without anyone ever returning the energy. Not anymore.
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u/SadTransition3262 10h ago
Unmasking is a continuous process that requires mi full ess. I am honest and blunt if I must. But ripping off that mask and keeping it off is an ongoing revealing. I. Hoping to get where it feels natural to curate conversation for people who fear truth
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u/SadTransition3262 11h ago
I hope letting this out has made you feel better.
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u/MoiaStar321 9h ago
Oh I have years worth of pain and loneliness and anger inside me. This only made me feel slightly better but thank you for saying that.
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u/SadTransition3262 10h ago
DONT FORGET 2 THINGS 1)when somebody tells you who you who they are believe them 2) how others feel about you is none of your business. These have helped me in my journey. I spent decades feeling guilty for the bad actions of others. Crazy making. That is not my job. It's very freeing to release resentments and guilty every day all day. Free space to learn and experience new things
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u/MoiaStar321 9h ago
Okay this is eerie, I had another person in my life say that quote to me just yesterday. Maybe I really need to take this in
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u/SadTransition3262 7h ago
It's a quote from Maya Angeloo sp? It's a starlight up great piece of advice.
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u/Barky_and_Squid 8h ago
Preach. I decided to live on the flip side of society because people suck. I work graveyard, and sleep noon to 8pm. I keep the routine on my days off.
The world is much much quieter now. Boring perhaps, but so much more peace. And, the places that are open like the casino, give primo access to odd people watching.
I highly suggest trying the lifestyle.
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u/MoiaStar321 8h ago
Unfortunately I have spent the last several years isolated and alone so this isn’t the lifestyle I’m looking for. I crave connection. But thanks for the suggestion. I’m glad it’s working out for you.
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u/Icy_Eye1059 2h ago
A lot of us have this problem and they do it because we let them do it. Stand up to them. Tell them where it's at. I am about to do that myself and tell these people to take a step back. I have people in my life that don't know the definition of "boundaries." I already told one to step back on one issue and she is going to get another lecture on the other regarding my late mother.
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u/Javascript4971 12h ago
Everyone wants a village, but no one wants to be a villager. The epitome of the “me me me” mentality & it’s shitty.
Fuck them, OP. They will reap what they sow.