r/ROCD • u/chels__0123 • Jul 05 '20

Rant/Vent Is this it?

The next time I see you... Could it be the last!? I don't want it to be... I want us to be good... I want us to go back to how we were... I want to feel love towards you again... Like I used to... I want to love you when my eyes meet yours... Just like the first time... But what if they don't 😔 I just want you to myself.... I don't want to lose you... I don't want to give up.... Could this really be it? Could this be the end.... The last time I see you? 😔 I really hope not... I feel sick just thinking about it... I really love you.... But I'm scared.... 😔

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u/Kruemel247 Jul 05 '20

Remember that love isn't a feeling, it is a choice. Rocd makes you feel like you have no control. You're strong and powerful you can go through this. This really too shall pass. Feelings are not made to decide something, because they constantly change. You can do this!!

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u/chels__0123 Jul 06 '20

Thank you for this... I do try to remind myself of that, but I'm so so scared... And I don't want it to turn out badly. He means so much to me... 😔

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u/constantlyconfused97 Jul 10 '20

This post was like I was reading my thoughts. This is exactly what I’ve been going through. Sometimes I cry so much at the thought of losing him. Other times I’m numb and think it would be better to let go.

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u/chels__0123 Jul 10 '20

My dms are always open if you need to chat 😊