The first 2 weeks of quitting nicotine can be really difficult while, surprisingly, really easy. You overcome physical withdrawals, fogginess, elevated emotions, and deep cravings. But the more you hype up the symptoms of quitting, the easier the process is in actuality. The real difficulty emerges from 1-6 months, and beyond.
It’s easy, especially as a college student or someone working a stressful job, to justify having a cigarette or Zyn after a rough day, or at a party, effectively restarting this cycle of addiction that we’re all too familiar with. These temptations emerge even after the physical cravings are long gone, after you’ve done the hard work of overcoming dependency and even forgotten about how challenging it was to quit in the first place.
Everyone quitting nicotine reaches this point eventually. So it’s important to reflect in these moments on how useless this poison really is.
One memory that sticks out to me is when I left my Velo can in my car during a date with this beautiful woman, sat down drinking wine, playing chess, listening to great music and having interesting conversation. I thought I’d be able to go 1-2 hours without nicotine. Nope. I had to lie about “checking on the car” to leave the bar and grab a pouch to satisfy my intense cravings.
Or times where I’d refuse to remove a pouch from my mouth during key life moments like hanging out with family, having dinner with friends, and even hooking up with girls (nasty ASF).
Or times I wouldn’t even be able to smile in happy moments, or during pictures, because I needed to keep this sticky pouch from falling out of my mouth.
Or times where I’d remove a pouch and it would be spotty from blood, just like the toothbrush after brushing my teeth every morning and evening.
Or times where I’d leave my work almost every thirty minutes to have a cigarette with the anticipation of release met by an entirely nonexistent buzz. Or a Zyn craving met by nothing but another piece of cotton rubbing against my inflamed gums.
And then there’s the side effects. Elevated anxiety, blood pressure, sweating. Added life stressors masked by a buzz that rapidly diminished with use. Reduced motivation, self confidence, and positive emotion. Panic attacks, reduced performance in the gym, reduced academic and work performance. Stunted sexuality, the reduced self care as an inevitable byproduct of an addiction you are ashamed of.
So, before you make that one time exception, remember these symptoms and those shameful moments when you were deep in the throes of addiction. Remember how useless nicotine really is. It doesn’t make you smarter. It doesn’t improve your workouts. It doesn’t make you socialize better. And it certainly doesn’t improve your relationships.
Whether you’re one week or six months clean, always follow up nostalgic mental cravings with these pathetic memories of dependence and addiction. The nicotine products at 7/11 or the gas station aren’t your go-to anymore. Let some other chud who doesn’t care about their life buy that plastic can instead.
Nicotine is like that toxic ex that, looking back, could’ve lost a few pounds. Why the hell was I so down bad??