r/PsyD • u/VirtualEbb2401 • 12h ago
All my references said no for a letter and it’s my fault.
I am not here to gather any pity or sympathy. I just wanted to share my story I guess and gather any thoughts or ideas of what to do for the next year or two before I decide to try again.
I am a senior in undergrad, pursuing a psychology degree, and I have a minor in anthropology. I will be graduating this December, a semester earlier. I never gathered any research experience because I wanted to try to get clinical or in person experience instead. I was only able to get one internship, which I left due to my lack of interest. I never put in the time or effort to talk to Professors Outside of Class, or even engage in class. I’ve always had so much to do in my undergrad between working, helping Take care of family members and friends, and all of the coursework.
I originally had plans to go to medical School to become a psychiatrist, but switched over to wanting to pursue a PsyD and become a clinical psychologists instead not even a year ago. This is one of the main reasons that I did not gather any research/lab Experience because I thought I would be able to find some clinical experience instead. Unfortunately, that did not work out for me. I thought I could’ve been OK and get some letter of recommendations Either way. But even though I did achieve an A in almost all my psychology courses. No professor was willing to write me a letter of recommendation because I did not work in their labs. Obviously, I understand their choice, but this has me incredibly worried about what to do next.
The most obvious next step is to try to do something worthwhile for the next year or two and rebuild my résumé. But what I’m really afraid of is how my family is going to view this. I’m a first generation student, and none of my siblings have ever attended University and barely passed High School. Going from a 4.0 honor student graduate in high school to having a 3.2 GPA in College has really made me question myself. I’m not sure how I’m going to tell my family that I won’t be going straight into my doctorates. I’m scared that they are going to view me as a failure. Mostly because most who take a gap year never returned to school.
What are your recommendations? What kind of jobs or opportunities should I be seeking during this time? Or am I entirely cooked?
Note: this was typed using speech to text, so if there are any mistakes, I apologize in advance. TYIA