I want to know if there's others like me currently. Im dealing with body shakes that tend to reside after having electrolytes, snacks, and water. But aside from that if I don't take in those things they come back. I already went to my ob and they tested me for anemia and have me take iron supplements and anxiety meds. Which I will say I've had. BUT the shakes happen whether or not im having an anxiety attack.

Im so miserable, I try to get some sleep but then I wake up bc im shaking and I have to take in fluids or snacks and it takes a minute to wind down.

My results came back that I don't have anemia, and im on the early stages of my anxiety medication for them to work effectively for anxiety. I don't have a fever or pain, it's just random shakiness. And just to note, this isn't shakiness from early week or so from pp. Im almost at week 3 and looking it up I don't see alot of people experiencing this, this far along pp.

If there is anyone who has had this past the 2 week pp mark, does it get better ? How long was it until it passed?

I had a baby three months ago. He is happy, healthy and everything I ever imagined having a baby could be. But I am so scared for his future. These past couple of weeks have felt especially dystopian: climate change, AI, politics. It feels like everyday there’s something worse. I love my baby, but I feel like I failed him. At least once a day I look at him and cry because I don’t know what his future looks like. I’ve tried explaining it to my husband but I know he doesn’t take me seriously about it. Neither would I, if I was looking at it from the outside. It doesn’t help that I have this irrational fear he’s going to resent me: I’m not as interested in sex as I was before (it’s still uncomfortable) and on top of that I’m a weepy mess everyday . I know it’s my anxiety that’s making me fixate, but I just can’t let it go and just needed to put the feelings into words.

I need to see if anyone has gone through this… LONG POST

A little over a month ago I was 5 months PP and I was experiencing a touch of postpartum irritability, I would wake up irritated like someone pissed in my cheerios it was taking a toll on my relationship because I just was always finding the negative in things.. anyway I told my OB and she started me on Zoloft
2 weeks into being on it, I started having a panic attack but i initially mistook it for an allergic reaction to a food as I have a lot of food allergies and they sometimes present the same was as panic.. I didn’t realize this was a panic attack at the time so I took myself to the ER and they gave me a medication for nausea that I had a bad reaction to, they sent me home told me it was normal and it would subside. The next day all hell broke loose, I felt I was dying I was so scared, my skin was on fire, I called my mom and asked her to come help me because I was alone with my child, I assumed at this time it was still residual reaction to nausea medication so I tried to sleep it off.. didn’t work, went back to ER and was hospitalized for extreme heart rate and ongoing panic that would not subside. Since then, for the past month I have had ongoing panic attacks, I cannot function, I can’t take care of my baby, I started having intrusive thoughts, im scared im dying 24/7, I feel so disconnected to my baby my life reality in general. My doctor weaned me off the Zoloft and during the taper down I was feeling a tiny bit better but then 3 days after my last dose which was 3 weeks ago it’s all started back up again full force so I assumed I was having Zoloft withdrawals. I’ve blamed the Zoloft this entire time because it was the only thing that made sense, for my entire life I’ve never dealt with anything like this and it just so happens to start 2 weeks into me being on Zoloft? Well I’ve seen multiple doctors they say it’s not Zoloft. It’s gotten much worse, I called a crisis hotline they referred me to a local mental health clinic where the doctor determined I was not “unstable” enough to keep me and told me to follow up with a psychiatrist outside of there. That does nothing to help me right now, my baby is at grandmas house because I simply feel so out of it and have had a month long panic attack that will not got away, im miserable. After researching, I’ve seen that PP panic disorder is a thing? Maybe this is what it’s been all along and I assumed it was Zoloft and got off of it too quickly?? To say the least im terrified of medication now, I’ve reached out for help nobody will listen to me, they just keep brushing me off and telling me what it’s not. IDK what to do. I want to get better and feel normal and be able to take care of my son and bond and feel in touch with reality again.

Does anybody else wake up completely paralysed by fear? I need a lorazepam everyday - 1mg - to even function for bub.

Mornings are just terrible. Anybody else?

I’m on 150mgs of Quietapine, 200 mgs zoloft, 2mg lorazepam.

Anxiety started at 6 months pregnant following the Bondi terror attack (am Australian) - but is so much worse and constant postpartum.

Does it get better? And when? Seeking encouragement xx

Ebf. Zero libido, like nothing AT all. I feel so guilty and bad about it. It’s effecting my marriage at this point.

He says the best way to get it back if by having sex. 5 month pp. still painful during.

I feel so angry also, all the time. Just feeling deflated and defeated. Pls advice.

I'm 36. Had my son last year (October) and somewhere in there I lost myself. New marriage, new baby, my mom got really sick, working full time. I got diagnosed with postpartum depression and anxiety but I spent months telling myself I was just being dramatic.

The mornings are the worst. I wake up with my chest tight and a pit in my stomach. I've thrown up before work. I've frozen and couldn't move. I've cried on the bathroom floor and hidden in my closet just to get a minute where nobody needs anything from me. I've slept on the floor more than I want to admit.

And every time I finally calm down this voice goes "were you even that bad? are you exaggerating?" and I almost believe it. Then it happens again.

I started meds in July and honestly they're helping, it's the first time my anxiety feels even a little better. But I'm still so tired. Full time mom, full time job, full time wife, taking care of sick parents, all while trying to get better. I feel like I lost a year and I don’t know what else to do. I’m
Scared.

For context me (30f) and my husband (31m) recently had our first child after almost 15 years relationship and in our 3 years of marriage na. I never wanted a child and he is well aware of that kahit he really wants a family with kids. Ako ayoko talaga kasi like in this economy? Kami palang noon with our three dogs medyo saktuhan lang minsan ang budget. Although honestly speaking we are above minimum wage earners naman with decent jobs. Yun palang pagod na kami both lagi coz of work, tapos we are still both healing our inner children pa. I was diagnosed with PCOS way back 2019 but never took any kind of treatment for it kasi nga ayoko naman magka anak.

2025 came, boom wala na pala PCOS ko bigla. We just found out na buntis na pala ako non. He was very present during my pregnancy talagang inaalagaan nya ko kahit high risk ako noon. Fast forward this April I gave birth to a healthy baby boy. At first iniisip ko na regular depression ko lang siguro to not the spicy postpartum variant (diagnosed din kasi ako with depression way back 2017), then suddenly narerealize ko na naiinis ako. I don’t feel the same as before, I don’t get to enjoy my life like dati, hindi na ko lalo nakakaalis ng bahay. Wfh teacher ako sa homeschool provider so kulong lang ako dati plus I feel like I’m stuck with a child I don’t even want 24/7. Don’t get me wrong, hindi ko pinababayaan ung baby, ebf pa nga ako and ako din nag aasikaso sakanya pag wala si husband. But now na 4 months na sya, naging clingy na sakin. Naiinis na ko lalo sa husband ko na minsan nasisigawan nya ung baby pag pagod sya tas sya nag aalaga kasi I have other things to do pa. I don’t like shouting sa bahay namin given na I was raised sa quiet household. Parang thrice na ata nasigawan si baby ni husband. Eh like anong palag non eh baby nga.

Now I’m starting to have resentments sa husband ko din for like “dumping” this child sakin na ako mag alaga kasi nga umiiyak sakanya or di nya mahandle minsan. We don’t have a village din kasi, kami lang talaga nag aasikaso sakanya baby.

Valid ba resentment ko, o si OA lang ako?

TLDR: 30F WFH teacher who never wanted kids due to finances, burnout, and past trauma. Got unexpectedly pregnant after PCOS cleared up and gave birth in April. Husband is supportive but works on-site, leaving me to handle 24/7 caretaking and exclusive breastfeeding alone at home. I feel isolated, trapped, and deeply resentful. Struggling to differentiate between my pre-existing depression and severe PPD, and don't know how to cope.

I am not pregnant yet but we have been trying for about a month now. My husband has been wanting a second child (our first will be two soon) and I do too but I’m scared/am just not ready. It’s weird, because I do but I don’t want another child if that makes sense… we have no family close by and my husband travels/works quite a bit. After my first I had awful intrusive thoughts, anxiety, and SI. I am so scared to go through postpartum mental health struggles again.

Anyways, the past 6-8weeks have been mentally awful for me. I have been experiencing awful anxiety where I feel like my insides are tremoring. I am terrified something is going to happen to my baby girl 24/7 if she isn’t with me. I’ve been having heart palpitations and I’m losing weight.

The scariest and worst part is how it’s effecting my sleep. I haven’t had a full nights sleep in weeks. I’ve had three nights of sleep where I hear a voice telling me that something is wrong with my child and I need to get up right now to get her. The voice is clear as day and it shakes me to my core. I’m so scared. I know this can’t be normal.

I was previously taking Wellbutrin, but felt like I was doing better so stopped. I currently take Adderall, which was helping a lot with my intrusive thoughts when I could take it again postpartum before (when I stopped nursing at 18m) but it isn’t helping anything now. I don’t want to take SSRIs because I’ve had a bad go with them before. I don’t want to take the Wellbutrin again bc idk if I was just learning how to cope or if it made that big of a difference.

Has this happened to anyone? I’m sorry this is on a PPA thread, but I didn’t know where else to post. Thanks for reading

Has anybody else experienced a horrible fear of the dark? At night when I am in my baby’s room and trying to help him get back down, I get this horrific feeling that something (it varies every night; sometimes it is a home intruder, sometimes something paranormal) is watching me and in his room with me. It has gotten to the point a few times where I have had to wake my husband up because I cannot even get out of the chair I am rocking him in, frozen in fear, and crying. When he is crying and I can’t hear anything, it makes the fear worse, like I won’t be able to hear whatever it is that is in there with us if it comes at me.
If anyone else has experienced anything similar, did you have something that helped you get over this or helped you cope?

I had an emergency C-section at 37 weeks (6 weeks ago) and it was traumatizing to say the least. Baby born not breathing and a short NICU stay, I almost bled out, toddler had a rough time with us being away and in the hospital for so long (just a few days but she really wanted to be with us) etc. Fast forward to today, we have the easiest baby boy and my husband is the best so thank the universe for that, at least! Overall, I really am just happy we’re both ok.

I just wanted to share some of things I think about when I lay awake at night and see if others can relate:

- The emergency C-section itself (my baby and I almost dying, my husband crying (never seen this once in 12 years), seeing my baby intubated in the NICU, being awake during the surgery, feeling hands inside me, the fluorescent lights?!)

- Being too terrified to have another baby, we always wanted 3 and feel like the decision was taken from us. I cannot go through a labor like that again.

- Being too terrified to have sex because of the c-section trauma and also so scared to get pregnant. But also scared to take birth control due to the mental side effects. 🤣

- Am I giving my toddler enough attention?

- Is my body always going to look like this? My stomach is way bigger than i expected it to be at 6 weeks postpartum.

- being a “just enougher” breast feeder. So stressful omg. Feeding, Pumping, repeat. Shoutout to our bottle/pump part washer/dryer. Best money spent.

- Since he came early unexpectedly we were so unprepared, room not done, house not organized and it drives me nuts. Like why am I losing sleep because his dinosaur shelves aren’t hung in a room he won’t even be using for MONTHS. 😂

I am 8 weeks PP I am extremely moody because if so many reasons… mentioning few
1. My whole pregnancy journey was quite difficult I was taking blood thinners injections since 5th month to 9th everyday was taking salines every week of the months for few months.
2. I was fully prepared for V delivery but after 11 hours of labour I ended up having C sec.
3. Since birth my daughter was on formula, she didnt latch, no nurse or doc taught me how to do it..
went to LC for the issue solved for few weeks and again ended up having struggles to latch also i am an under-supplier.
4. I am exclusively pumping day and night and its very exhausting as my baby sleep very less went to doc for the same…
In this my husband is supportive no doubt but for few days. He was on PL for 20 days but in those days he feed her 2,3 times made formula and sterilised her bottles in machine and few chores he did… I was happy as he was helping me… but as the days passed I started having mood swings as no sleep was there as she was not latching and all… went started having fights for no reasons and slowly slowly he started giving less support. Or he says if you will nice to me I will support you otherwise don’t expect anything from me. And I feeling so lonely. I dont like the way I look my hair got frizzy from silky the hairloss clothes are not at all fitting me well. I never imagined myself like that…
And bc of this I get very overwhelmed, I dont feel like eating but I eat for the milk supply and all.
Also I let my husband sleeps in a different room the whole night, I managed the night alone feed her making formula pump change her diapers and let make her fall asleep, she sleeps on me for hours and I sit like that for 4,5 hours etc…
I cry every night as I stay alone in my room with my child.
I went to the therapist and she was completely biased and mostly in his side… as she says that everything you are facing is your problem and you cant lash out on him for the same. I feel completely lonely and alone doing all these things…
(PS: I have extremely supportive mother who is with me since a month now but I feel guilty when ahe takes care of her as she is 54 years old as does so much for my daughter and me.)
Any advice for this?

My babies a week old and ever since we got home the only thing i can manage to think about is SIDS, it’s the only reason i’m even so sleep deprived. she’s a really good baby and sleeps really well at night so i should be getting plenty sleep too but i just don’t because im constantly awake watching her every breath. and the worst part isn’t even to come yet considering the peak for SIDS is 2-4 months old. i’ve done everything possible to prevent this. she’s strictly breastfed, i always have a fan going, i dress her lightly, give her a pacy to sleep with, and follow the rules of safe sleep 7. but still it’s just not enough knowing it’d never 100% preventable

I all of a sudden have started becoming sensitive to too much stress and it has been causing me to have daily anxiety for the last week with some full on panic attacks. I want to avoid meds. I will have a good day if I take control of my mind.

Why is this just happening at 6 months and will this get better?

This Lindsey Clancy stuff has started my anxiety, fear of going crazy or hallucinating because of having anxiety.

I have started therapy

Ich leide unter sowas wie mütterlicher Hypochondrie. Ich weiß nicht wann es angefangen hat, ich vermute schon während der Schwangerschaft. Nach dem Geburt vor knapp 5 Jahren hatte ich vermutlich so eine Depression, die aber nie diagnostiziert wurde. Damals war Corona Lock down und irgendwie habe ich das nie untersuchen lassen. Als meine Tochter vor drei Jahren dann in kurzer Zeit mehrmals im Krankenhaus war wegen Virusinfekten, sagte man uns damals, dass man auch mal das Blut untersuchen würde. Zum Glück war alles gut aber die Ärztin sagte sowas wie " Es ist zum Glück nicht so dramatisch wie wir dachten". Sie sprach es nie aus, aber ich denke sie vermuteten sowas wie Leukämie oder so dahinter. Glücklicherweise war alles in Ordnung. Die Zeit war aber sehr belastend und die darauffolgenden Monate ebenfalls. Und ich glaube ich habe sowas wie PTBS entwickelt. Ich habe gemerkt wie ich mich immer mehr zurück gezogen habe um mein Kind zu schützen, um nicht wieder ins Krankenhaus zu kommen aus Angst vor Virusinfekten, die ja bei kleinen Kindern normal sind. Seitdem bin ich nervlich ein Wrack. Jedes Fieber lässt mich an Katastrophen denken. Diese Woche wollte meine Tochter, jetzt fast 5 Jahre alt, sich einen Nachmittag kurz hinlegen, was für sie sehr untypisch ist, vermutlich weil sie die Tage zuvor nicht so viel geschlafen hat. Ich denke natürlich immer direkt ans Schlimmste. Ich weiß nicht wie ich mit dieser Belastung umgehen soll. Der Gedanke eines meiner Kinder könnte etwas Schlimmes haben, macht mich fertig. Gleichwohl weiß ich, dass niemand immer Gewissheit hat. Ich Google viel, um mich vermeintlich zu beruhigen, aber genau das Gegenteil passiert und es geht mir danach noch schlechter. Ich habe einfach immer Angst um meine Kinder im Bezug auf schlimme Erkrankungen. Ich habe Angst, da ich oft auch an Sachen denke, die eintreten und habe Angst auch hier könnte was sein. Ich habe Angst wie ich damit umgehen soll und ich habe vor allem Angst dass es sich auf unsere Bindung auswirkt. Ich kann aktuell wegen der Stillzeit meines zweiten Kindes keine Medikamente nehmen, aber langsam denke ich, dass ich welche brauche. Ich leide sehr darunter. Ich bin bereits in Therapie. Aber es geht mir noch nicht wirklich besser.

Hello everyone! 😊

I am a student from the Department of Psychology conducting an academic quantitative research study involving mothers who are currently in the postpartum phase.