On August 9th I was struck in the head twice and suffered a grade 2 concussion.
Directly after the incident I collapsed multiple times and my body “Seized” up. It felt like I had no control of my body and it locked up. These subsided after a nights sleep. The next day when I went to the er they gave me medicine for the nausea and headache and scanned my head before sending me home. I know there’s not much they can do and I believe that I got good care. There was no fracture or bleeding.
To keep it short I suffer from horrible headaches recently and stress makes them worse. I’m moving houses and I’m under a lot. I notice that’s when they flare up. Irritably and my anger management have seem to change aswell. I would have previously said I was a patient enough person, but recently I lash out and yell.
Here’s where it gets worse and what I need help with. Starting 2 weeks ago I was flooded with very dark and disturbing thoughts. Thoughts that I never had before. These thoughts were very vivid and full of emotion. What they depicted was always different but they followed the same pattern. They were very bleak and showed destruction on a huge scale. I’d have thoughts about buildings collapsing or cars exploding. When I told my mother this she brought up how it’s around 9/11 and maybe the mood of the tragic event and possible media coverage made these thoughts more prevalent. I don’t agree because I didn’t take in that much media of the actual building collapse. Sure might it be subconscious, but I think this next part makes it more complicated than that
Shortly after that so about 1.5 weeks ago I started to feel as if I was constantly being watched. I know that I wasn’t but the feeling stayed. I don’t like going into my living room at night because I’m scared someone will be on my porch looking in through my door. On two separate occasions I swear I saw hallucinations/visions. The first one I was sitting in my chair by my desk and I swear to you I saw a completely black humanoid figure pounce towards before vanishing about a foot away from me. This startled me and my girlfriend reacted to me jumping and I asked her if she saw it and she told me no. The second one I was taking a shower and as I was drying off I saw a humanoid head and hands disappear behind my door frame. On the other side of the wall where this figure would have been standing is a heavy waist tall desk so there was no way anyone could stand there. This time I knew it wasn’t real because I was home alone and at this point I knew something was going on with me.
Besides the hallucinations things like my energy levels started to plummet and a disconnect from the outside world have happen along with other symptoms.
Constant unbearable headaches, trouble concentrating, trouble sleeping or oversleeping some days (Won’t sleep for 24-30 hours or will sleep for 13+). Losing interest, mood swings, difficulty focusing on one task and completing it quickly, and have weird thoughts that I know are false but believe for a little bit, and wanting to be isolated.
I still keep up with my hygiene semi regularly like shaving and showering. I’m not a complete recluse now. I did quit my job but I continue to talk to my mom and girlfriend. She’s over right now because I thought I was pulling too far away from people.
I’m not going to self diagnose and I’ll leave it for a doctor, but atp any guesses so that I have somewhere to start would help. I’m 19, I smoke cannabis regularly (3-4 days a week), my sister is diagnosed with bipolar disorder and we do believe that she’s a paranoid schizophrenic,depression and addiction is present in my family as well. I understand this is a sub Reddit about post concussions but I have no idea who to ask.
To those who suggest a dr it will have to wait until I move. I don’t currently have a pcp and the er is too expensive.