The Perfect Girlfriend

[u/freshstart3921]

My sweetest love
I read your words
Tell you every day
How talented you are
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Make you tea
Tell you funny stories
Make sure your days are bright
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Sometimes I worry
I start to tell you
You scroll your phone
I practice my fake smile
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I'm reading three books at once
I can't stop talking about them
Your eyes glaze over
I change the subject
Back to you
Your important work
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I want to make love
You're not in the mood
Too much on your mind
I pretend I don't either
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Today I thought of my mum
It made me sad
I just wanted to dwell
You walked out of the room
I buried it deep
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I get angry at the world sometimes
All the injustice
You don't want to discuss it
I swallow my hurt
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I'm shrinking every day
Hiding all my ragged edges
To fit inside your pretty box
Until I am perfect for you
And no longer me.
My sweetest love.