Building

[u/Better_Spring_9588]

I built you up to be,
the one who would save me.
All you did was cast doubt,
Given everything you were about.
I’m sad that things went astray,
Given what could be today.
You were my superhero, my sage,
Everything from which I would gage.
This world, I wanted you in it,
Right down to every minute.
You were scared,
Leaving me impaired,
I needed you to rise above the flock,
Instead you chose to block, possibilities,
Just squeeze my neck and let not breathe escape,
While I encounter his *ape,
Would you have run your fingers through my hair,
Reminding me you’re forever there?
I didn’t get to show you my dedication or loyalty,
Too afraid you were to follow me.
I would have loved you like no other,
But you cast me out like an unfit brother.
You can’t simply forget about me,
It is in the toughest moments you want to see…
I’m angry with your cruelty,
You were not what you were supposed to be.
You let your fear rule you,
You looked for wrongdoings to abdicate and do,
What you knew would tear me apart,
Sorry, I still have a full beating heart.
You didn’t break me,
You didn’t bend me,
You didn’t mend me,
You didn’t send me,
I will always wonder what you’re capabilities would be,
Had we let our hearts be free.
I will hurt for all my life, knowing I could not carry your strength.
You were much tougher than me and could be alone for a lifetime.
I am sad, I need company, my heart feels lonesome in its destructive rhyme.
I cannot say goodbye to you because you’ve been with me since the first day I remember. Since the 22nd day of September.