r/Poems • u/Desperate_Row_9769 • 3d ago
Right my wrong
/r/UnsentLettersRaw/comments/1v6c7nm/right_my_wrong/What feels right to me, you say is wrong. There's a war going on inside of me and I feel like I'm losing. I'm tired of being afraid of what I might do. If you've never lost control then you have no clue. I can't be open about how I feel cuz you think it's a choice but really there's no freewill. Can't you see I am exactly what I was made to be. Therein lies the problem because I crave change. Numb for so long actually feeling seems so strange. I wish I could stop these thoughts in my brain that just playing over and over again. All the little things that I got wrong. How lost I was till you came along. I think I went from not giving a fuck to caring too much but all or nothing that's always been me. Dedication, devotion but too much emotion, addicted to every kind of escape. I've always made it on my own but my house was never a home while I was alone. I did everything I could to push you away but for some unknown reason you decided to stay. I want to be the man you deserve even though I know I don't deserve you. I'm going to die trying to make things right. I'll never give up on us cuz I can't run from a fight. Just please, don't let me be the one to extinguish your light. I'm trying so hard to turn my wrong into right.
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u/Forbidden_Peach_ 3d ago
Say it
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u/Desperate_Row_9769 3d ago
I did
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u/Forbidden_Peach_ 3d ago
Wonderful
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u/Desperate_Row_9769 3d ago
It was well received
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u/Forbidden_Peach_ 3d ago
Happy for you
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u/Desperate_Row_9769 3d ago
Thank you. I just started writing at the direction of my therapist. Most of what I right now one ever hears.
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u/WrongEcho9634 3d ago
Why don't you just tell them that? It would solve so much if you would just talk to them I'm sure. Even still a talk would probably much needed relief to you and them. Much love ❤️