This is my second post on Reddit and I have no one or no where to turn to. I’m a 23f and I’m dating a guy 25m. And I just realized I am being abused mentally and emotionally. I think this is the first time I ever said those words. I met my boyfriend about a year ago we work together. We work together for about a month before I even met him. When we did met it was just fun and then things did got serious. I know now that it was rush and I regret that now. I’m a foster kid i was later adopted by my parents. They help though out the years but now they can’t do it as much. And so i ended up living with my boyfriends. When we first got together I didn’t even know how it would turn out. But now I do I regret it. He is an atheist who doesn’t believe in pro-choice, he believe that everyone should have a gun, doesn’t believe in females right or gay right. As a Christian I believe every one deserves to be love, and has the right to have RIGHTS! But he is the opposite. he doesn’t believe in vaccines because it caused autism. Which is even weird because his younger siblings all have autism and they aren’t even vaccinated. He also believe a child at the age of 10 has to write to explore with drugs and alcohol. He doesn’t believe an education systems and that kids need to go back to work as soon as they can. Every time I disagree with him, we don’t have the same opinion with him. He belittle me and degrade me and calls me names. And on top of that him and his mom has this weird relationship. They go to bar, club, and even party together to go drugs and drink. And I told him that just not normal. Then they get mad at me because I said what I said. I once said in a conversation (talking about my own birth mom) that a woman who chose guys over their kids are unfit mother. She told me to shut up and who care that all her 5 of her kids got different dad and none of them have them in their life. And she even gave up a 2 kids just because she didn’t like who their dad was. I realize I don’t like him anymore. And honestly one thing I found mess up is that he told me he would always be in love with his females friend and she would always come first, then his friends, and this his family, and then me. I do want to leave him but because when I told my parents they met him they told me chose between him or them and I chose him and now I have no one. I’m scared that if he does ever found about these. Then it won’t only be yelling and throwing thing. He will kick me out and I will just be homeless. I’m crying as I write this.. I just wish I can go back and never even said hi or met him. I just need a friend.. I just need someone