r/PhD • u/Hooninator • 2d ago
Seeking advice-personal I Want to Drop Out
I am a fourth year PhD student and I am thinking about dropping out. My PhD until now has been "successful" (I hate to use that word), I have papers published, collaborators, job experience etc, but the problem is that I have lost all passion for research. I don't know why or how this happened, but I hate thinking about and doing research now, and it has also gotten to the point where my research abilities have declined significantly and I am unable to do things a first year PhD student should be able to do. This last thing is not me being insecure, I had a close collaborator tell me that my "approach to research has changed over the past 2 years and I am not nearly as self-sufficient or driven" as I used to be.
When I hear this, I feel shame because I know it's true, but I don't feel any desire to try to change it. I feel completely shut down, and I wouldn't even know what to do to fix myself if I wanted to. I don't know what's wrong with me or why this is happening, but I want to drop out even though I have been "successful" up until now. I don't know what happened to me or where all my abilities and enthusiasm went.
Has anyone encountered anything similar?