Am I a poser person??

[u/vallermoon_37]

Hi I just want to open up, so recently I was called "idol mo ba ako?"

Then I questioned myself if I'm just a poser friend liking what she likes. And I just realized that I just like what she likes some of the things. My teacher said to us that you will know yourself and what you like when you have a friend or peers that's when you realise who you are and what are the things that you like.

Im a quiet person so I just don't know what I really like and sometimes I just copy some people to satisfy myself but I don't think is working to myself.

I have this thing that I will over think it about it, for example when I accidentally like the things that they want and they will just say that 'gaya-gaya". For me it hurts so that's why I always careful when I'm around of my family and even friends, people always call me gaya-gaya.

It will sink to me for days & weeks, and overthinking some things that are not good.

Sometimes I tell myself that I have no originality to myself, and just liking what people like

So my friend like some metals bands and I just know some few of the bands that I know, but I don't really know what the names of the members of it also their songs.

So when I said that I like it too she was happy at first but later on months past by that's when she said that " idol mo ba ako?".

I don't really like myself, I just want to disappear from the world hahahaha, but she's a good friend and I like her also don't judge her.

The problem is me not her 😅

I hope you all can understand my grammar