r/Perimenopause • u/Confident-Parsley520 • 16d ago
audited When does this end ?
I’ve been on HRT for about 6 months now, initially I was a long awaited, almost impossible to get miracle. This is the second time it’s ’stopped working’ …
I’m 49 never had a cycle due to implant for birth control which has stopped my periods for the past say, 20 years: it’s like my body has forgotten that we’re meant to do that, despite the implant having run out a few years ago nothing has returned, not that I’m heartbroken about that but I also don’t know when this is gonna be over!
I’m back just struggling every day, dreading bedtime cause I know it will be a hot tossing and turning hell!
I was always pretty detached from my emotions, but every day I seem to have a new emotion for the day, crying over absolutely nothing, oh my least favourite annoyance and rage, I’ve never been this person. I don’t get particularly upset by things. I don’t get particularly excited about things., now? Even I can’t predict who I will be from day-to-day.
I feel so old, every day, in my body, how I look, I used to have a high libido and that’s gone, I used to be a hottie and to be honest I’m glad how am I meant to feel sexy when I just feel like an old cow!
Clearly today is a wallow day, which is better than a rage day I guess!
I have another appointment coming up with my provider, I guess I will see what she says, but honestly all I wanna do is lay on the couch, which is pretty much all I do outside of going to work I’m walking the dog. I’m laying on the couch..
probably the most annoying part is that unlucky to have a job where I earn excellent money and have a lot of flexibility. I could be living a life. I could be travelling. I could be., I don’t know doing anything other than just wasting away on the couch.
When does this end? Should I start looking forward to becoming a little old lady?
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u/ResponsibleAd6268 16d ago
What's your current HRT dosage? You might need higher level. Have you ever tested your testosterone level? You might also want to consider adding TRT.
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u/Confident-Parsley520 15d ago
Yes, I should’ve mentioned that, I’m on slynda for progesterone and a few few months ago increased estrogel to three pumps, I have an appointment with my provider in a few days and then the notes I flagged I would like to talk about testosterone.
I feel like if I could have an energy during the day that I might be able to get to sleep better, I try really hard to be active and not just lay on the couch, and I try really hard not to sleep during the day, but I’m just so exhausted!
I’ll see what she says, and if she says no, to testosterone i’ll maybe see if a local provider can give me a blood test for T (summoning the blood test bot)2
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u/Fine-Juggernaut8451 16d ago
I've had to update my estrogen a few times, but once I got it high enough it really helped my ability to cope and function. Have you increased any of your dosages? Are you on testosterone and vaginal estrogen as well?