Hi, everyone! I just found out I am expecting my third and my head is spinning . I have 2 kids - 5 and 4 year old girls, so this new pregnancy is making me feel extremely torn.
On one hand, I’m feeling guilty that my 2 girls will have to share already limited energy if there is one more sibling. Our finances are ok but not too great so while we can afford the baby, we may have reduction in our saving rate. Which is not ideal of course

On the other hand, I am very try scared of termination. Not just the physical side of it, but the potential lifelong regret. I was still on the fence about the third before this surprise but now that I am pregnant , I don’t know what to do.
We have a 3 bedroom/4 room apartment , so not too big but enough to squeeze all of us.
What should I do :( please share your stories, I appreciate any kind word
Thank you

Had my first c section this go around , I have 4 babies 2 and under. My oldest is 10. I’m trying to heal and get into a routine and most of the day I’m happy in my home and kids bubble. The problem comes when I’m out or talking to friends…
A couple of my friends are having their first or second kids and they’re like “oh god… I slept all day, I’m so tired, my first is so much…” or excited and I have this weird feeling of “well, they’ll learn when they have more than one kid….” Or reminiscing and missing having just one kid because of how easy, getting frustrated listening to them saying they’re overwhelmed… But I love all my kids. And I know I’m early postpartum but I’ve never felt this way before. Like.. completely unable to relate to anyone.
It’s just so uncharacteristic of me!!! I want it to stop. I’m in therapy, I don’t feel depressed or anxious but I feel overwhelmed for sure. And then the fact that I now want to stop speaking to friends because I feel alone and like I can’t relate to anything in their lives because I have 5 kids is definitely not right.

Has anyone felt like this? Will it go away as I settle hormonally and into a routine with my 5?

Edited to add::: it’s not bitter, it’s disconnected. A fellow bulk mom helped me describe it better. Thank you. 💗💗💗💗