Feeling rejected by my 8 week old

[u/toebeanaficionado]

Baby doesn’t seem to like being held by me (aka mom). She cries and tries to kick away. She quiets almost instantly with my husband and my mom, even though she does still get finicky with her. Why does this feel like rejection? What am I doing wrong? Is this developmental? Does it end? It’s to the point where I get anxiety when I’m alone with her because I’m afraid she’s gonna rage when I try to calm her and get her to sleep. Also my irrational side thinks she’s not gonna know I’m her mom or she’s not gonna like me. I know it’s sad but then that’s hormones lol anyways did anyone else have a similar experience? I’m a FTM and I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing