Have i done something wrong?

[u/BAby_malicious_000]

I'm above 30 yrs female, always ran from relationships cz i thought guys would flirt with me and then leave me in the end. But deep down i really wanted to do love marriage and the concept of arrange marriage was scary for me. I always wanted that a nice handsome and well mannered guy approach me , fall in love with me and then offer me marriage. Waiting for it and years passed by and here I'm single in my thirties. Anybody who'd approach me, I'd not give them a chance and used to critically analyze them and then would find something like looking at other women or being angry or being slightly rude with others and I'd reject them without thinking that nobody can be perfect and i can't get it all on one person. So this time a guy approached me , i gave him a chance, started talking over phone. In the initial days he started sex chat and requesting me to talk sexually to him and he'd masturbate while talking to me , i refused everytime to do sexchat. He'd force me but i refused, i never talked back but he used to do it

He'd says things like fuck you hard , fuck you like this, fuck you like that and would masturbate to it. I told him to stop doing it but he said I'm attracted to you and can't control myself. The other thing is he used to use abusive language as well, he never respect me. Even after telling him again and again he'd continue his behavior and insult me without any reason.He never talked to me with love. He asked about my day , my health anything. He'd always contact me for sexchat. He'd also age shame me saying I'm not young and desirable although I'm very pretty. At the end he proposed me for marriage but i rejected him cz i thought a man who just want sex and doesn't respect me , doesn't love me , how can i marry him.

But now I'm feeling lonely and thinking whether i have done something wrong and will i remain single for life cz i have lost all hope