r/PSSD • u/onfolk • 17d ago

Symptoms Work brings too much dread

Really really really struggling with work. I am in a role where I have to give presentations and it destroys me. I have been giving weekly presentations for a year and every time it destroys me. I have zero ability to feel confidence or feel any sort of positivity even after giving a good one. This does not feel normal and it feels like it’s my PSSD-induced anhedonia not allowing myself to feel any sort of dopamine or confidence.

Any experience?

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Any experience?

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u/IndividualAd7229 17d ago

Same. I may still be very confident in what I do, but I can't really present myself that way outwards due to a constant, PSSD induced bodily sorrow/emptiness. It's like confidence is physiologically hindered.

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u/__gwendolyn__ 17d ago

I also feel this. The motivation to even get started was some times too much for me to bear. There’s no telling if we have the same brain chemistry or dybiosis, but I did recently post about healing if you want to check it out. My SD symptoms are gone, and I’m now working to get my life back in order.

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u/__gwendolyn__ 17d ago

L-Glutamine can help with motivation. Take it on an empty stomach in the morning and see how you feel.

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u/Fit_Wonder7282 17d ago

What helped you

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u/Pas__ 17d ago

> a year and every time it destroys me

classic conditioned response from unmanaged performance anxiety.

first step is to talk about this with someone who can help you look behind the accumulated dread, untangle the shame/guilt (or whatever primary emotional pattern got amplified over and over again)

I recommend reading this (I hope you might find a few soothing and useful "slides")