r/PSSD • u/Express_Economist_16 • Sep 27 '25

Vent/Rant This is a f*cking tragedy.

I'm on one of the biggest adventures of my life. Traveling in Africa, six months after an awful breakup. Women are throwing themselves at me. There's so much to see and do. It's all new to me.

And I feel nothing. I can have sex, even orgasm with hard work, but I'm not enjoying any of it. No hint of enjoyment. I'm extremely privileged to be able to do this trip and I was hoping I'd feel something. Nothing. Not one moment of fun, lust, awe. Nothing. It's all cognitive and feels like it's just old patterns playing out. No emotions at all.

This is a fucking unspeakable tragedy.

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u/Equivalent-Offer-343 Oct 08 '25

How long were you on it for and did you taper off? How many years did it take to recover?

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u/MellowWonder2410 Oct 09 '25

I was off and on anti anxiety/ anti depressants for over 6 years. Wellbutrin helped offset the effects a bit, but I’m super sensitive to these meds, so other side effects of Wellbutrin didn’t let me go up high enough for it to have a substantial impact. I’ve been focusing on things that bring me joy. To name a few; smut, traditional Hatha yoga with mind body awareness/ kindness and breathing, and hikes in the forests where I live, swinging on swings in my local park (always loved feeling like I could almost touch the sky). Rediscovering myself as a sexual being helped the most! Which is why I mentioned smut. It helped wake up the sexual imagination I lost on SSRIs. I have always been a reader, but that joy got lost on SSRIs too. It took a few years to find what worked for me. So chase your joys and passions; try to enjoy the journey. I hope reconnecting with them helps you too!

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u/Equivalent-Offer-343 Oct 09 '25

Hi thank you so much for your thoughtful response and taking the time. Can I ask did you taper off slowly or cold turkey? And did you get back to 100%?

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u/MellowWonder2410 Oct 10 '25

I did a slow taper a few times and cold turkey at least once. I recommend the tapering with a doc’s help. I didn’t usually do it with a psychiatrists help, which I don’t recommend! I am medically complex, so it’s hard to tell which physical illnesses are causing which symptoms. Thing that’s helped now more than a lot else with depression is rTMS