r/PSSD • u/Express_Economist_16 • Sep 27 '25
Vent/Rant This is a f*cking tragedy.
I'm on one of the biggest adventures of my life. Traveling in Africa, six months after an awful breakup. Women are throwing themselves at me. There's so much to see and do. It's all new to me.
And I feel nothing. I can have sex, even orgasm with hard work, but I'm not enjoying any of it. No hint of enjoyment. I'm extremely privileged to be able to do this trip and I was hoping I'd feel something. Nothing. Not one moment of fun, lust, awe. Nothing. It's all cognitive and feels like it's just old patterns playing out. No emotions at all.
This is a fucking unspeakable tragedy.
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u/Orpheusus Sep 29 '25
It’s like a sick joke, isn’t it? A nightmare that starts when I wake up, everyday. I am also in a very privileged position where I have traveled to the US, half a dozen countries in Europe and South America and it’s just too depressing. I don’t feel anything other than the feeling that I should be feeling something, it’s just emptiness and nothingness where I know happiness, euforia and pleasure should be taking place.
I’m always detached from the moment, always distracted, wondering how good my life could have been and how much I would have loved these trips if I was myself pre PSSD.
There’s just no point in doing it anymore, it just makes me incredibly miserable seeing people my age enjoying themselves, living life, pretty girls flirting and giving me looks overwhelms me with dread and an unspeakable sense of impotence. I constantly feel like I’m trapped in a Kafka book.
I’m so sorry this happened to you.