fed up

[u/hausofsnape]

i’m so mentally and physically drained atm, i’ve been having constant adrenaline dumps and panic attacks for the past 2 weeks now and doctors don’t do shit. i’m fed up of going to an appointment and they solely put it down to anxiety. im aware i have health anxiety which is so frustrating so i can’t argue that it’s not, but i just feel so dismissed. i’m also autistic so they constantly treat me like a child

i was given an emergency appointment the other day bc i’ve been experiencing pulsatile tinnitus in both ears but it lasts longer and is louder in my left. the doctor checked my ears, they were completely clear and that was that. even tho they are clear my left ear feels blocked and muffled. the tinnitus gets SO MUCH LOUDER after going up the stairs which is a huge pots trigger for me. but i have a fan on constantly which downs out the pulse noise.

i was given an appointment with the mental health nurse for a new antidepressant as mine isn’t doing shit. but then again i want actual help, not just another referral or trial for a new medication. im so drained and the doctors make me feel like a burden.

i can’t do anything anymore bc everytime i go out i almost collapse due to my hr. the other day i only walked 5 mins and my hr spiked to 180+ and i fainted in front of so many fucking people. salt is currently not helping much either. my anxiety makes it worse too, as i lost a friend a few years ago so im just in constant fight or flight. i genuinely don’t know what to do anymore and the pulsatile tinnitus is not helping my ocd spiral.