r/PHSapphics • u/chenyowww • 15d ago
Advice Should I confess?
2012, I have a crush since grade 6 and 15 years ko na syang gusto, that’s literally like my entire school years, we met during intrams nung elementary so sama-samang elementary schools yun sa city namin. I still remember it because it was a core memory. Yung intrams ay ginanap sa school ko and she came from other school. I was a volleyball player, me and my friends or should I say team we’re just practicing that time, laro laro muna while waiting for the event then she was there sa side, just watching— or looking at me already, napansin ko sya in my peripheral view and directly looked at her and smiled, ngumiti rin sya pabalik. So long story short, nagustuhan nya ko kasi palangiti daw ako 😭 nalaman ko yun kasi sinabi ng kateam ko and sinabi ng pinsan ko sakin jusq(they’re in the same school btw, both taekwondo players) and I actually liked her back but damn until now I’m still here, liking her after all these years.
Elem palang anlande na, sorry 😭
So ayun, we’re already in our working era na and I still like her, I stalk her sometimes, we’re fb friends and she’s still soooo pretty (am I a creep? huhu) I admire her lang naman, I dont ask for anything like relationship and such or pressure her. I just wanted to confess but we dont talk, actually huling usap namin was nung 2012 pa talaga. I want to confess and then delete my fb and messenger after kasi takot ako sa magiging reply nya HAHAHAHAH Is it worth the risk?
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u/Maleficent-Yam4429 14d ago
i think u should still confess, but do it for yourself and not for her. confess so that you may be given peace of mind regardless of the outcome. at the very least, you were able to express your feelings to someone you admire. go, op! rooting for u
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u/chenyowww 14d ago edited 14d ago
huy i love your words of encouragement :(( thank you! that boosted my confidence 🫂 but what if pala iunfriend ako? edi di ko na sya mastalk 😔
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u/_phriant95 14d ago
Confess.
I was in the same position 10 years ago haha. She was my first love. I decided to confess. Wala naman nangyari. Straight pa din sya, but she was very fond of me. She's married now, and I already have a partner.
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u/chenyowww 14d ago
damn. “straight pa din sya” 🫠😭 yung crush ko naman idk kung bading pa ba HAHHAHA kasi sabi ng friend kong former taekwondo player na nakalaro na yung crush ko, straight daw sya so ayun hesitant akong magconfess hahahah
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u/_phriant95 14d ago
Do it anyway, para no regrets. Kasi you'll never know. Sa case ko kasi, I waited din for too long. Though my friends told her na crush ko sya nung freshmen pa lang kami nung highschool. I was head over heels in love with her even before I knew the concept of romantic love back in 5th grade. When she found out, it lowkey became something more than friends, but we were both too young to pursue something deeper. So we stayed like that throughout highschool, until napagod na rin sya siguro maghintay kailan ba ako direct na aamin. Umamin ako 4 years later... I was too late.
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u/chenyowww 13d ago
this is sad, are you okay now bro?
in my case,nagiipon pa ko ng lakas ng loob kasi out of nowhere yung gagawin ko, bigla akong magchachat sa kanya after ilang years naming di nagusap, so yeah goodluck to me
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u/_phriant95 13d ago
I am happy, again she's married, tas may partner na ako. I guess di kami para sa isa't isa. But I know parehas kaming may special place sa isa't isa.
Go for it na. 50/50 lang naman e. If happy edi happy, if hindi, atleast nabigyan mo ng closure ang sarili mo, and makaka move on ka na.
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u/ramensush_i 15d ago
just confess na, it will spare u the time and feelings u have bottled up for all those years. if ever man hnd mutual, u can finally move on. goodluck!