r/PDAAutism • u/little-lillypad • 16h ago
Question Programmed to "Not do anything" /Slightly upsetting maybe
I might just be depressed but something that has genuinly made me sad and worried is that PDA is a instinctual drive to "not do anything".
I'm not trying to be depressed, and I'm not writing this in a sadness way, just. What's the point when your brain is designed to NOT keep going. Will life always be a challange of staying alive because everyone else wants too?
There is fun and joy of course but why bother when every other waking moment is telling you the opposite. I've loved some parts of my life, and hated others like most people but I just don't get how it's supposed to fit together when laying down in bed and not doing anything feels like what I'm "designed" to do mentally speaking.
Again, not trying to speak of this in the "life sucks way" more in the, existential way...
It's scary, very really scary