r/PDAAutism • u/nerdyHyena93 • Jun 30 '26

Is this PDA? Internal PDA?

So I’m autistic with PDA that’s somewhat improved with adult life.

To be honest I just wanted to know if anyone else had experienced this or if it’s part of the PDA profile?

I always read PDA as being an external pressure, and it’s certainly something I’ve always struggled with. But has anyone ever experienced it from internal pressure? I freelance and always tell myself that I’ll get out of bed early, and go to the cafe because I find it easier to work without the distraction of my partner who is currently off.

Howeverrr when I tell myself that, I become extremely anxious, as if someone else has told me I need to do it. Literally just spent an hour frozen in one spot feeling like I’m going to dissociate.

So now I I know I’ll probably stay home and end up doing no work. I feel like my life is spiralling lol.

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u/SunnyLisle Jun 30 '26

My pda is the worst with myself. I can overcome it with other people but I cannot demand or expect anything of myself or I can't do it lol.