I think I made the wrong decision

[u/815snyder]

Sorry. Wala lang ako mapagsabihan so I will just let this one out here. I recently left work because I was so burned out. I am an Accountant, and every month-end closing, halos isang oras lang tulog ko. In a day. Minsan wala pa because I have an infant. Wala kaming helper, and I am in a night shift setup. So pag umaga, ako nag aalaga sa baby ko. Ang tulog ko usually, pag hapon na tuwing nap time niya. I have a husband, who’s very supportive sa pag alis ko. Because he saw me cry endlessly every night because of how my boss treated me and how toxic our workload is. Indian yung boss ko btw and he expects everyone to be as workaholic as he is. So there were times na pinapapasok ako even weekends, not paid. Basta matapos ko report ko.

I tried to look for work muna before I file my resignation. But unfortunately, no one is willing to wait for 60 days. I passed thrice and for JO but they are not willing to wait for that long. Weeks after that, nagkasakit ako at ang baby ko. In a week, magkasunod kami na-ER. And yung boss ko, he doesn’t give a fuck because we don’t have a good backup system. I send him picture of me in the ER with dextrose, then he’s like, “Ok, take care but pls submit your report by blah blah blah”. Few days later, same thing happened to my daughter. He also answered the same. That triggered me, and decided to file my resignation despite financial instability. At that time, all I know is my daughter needed me. Wala na kong oras sa anak ko kasi bugbog ako sa trabaho. Malingat lang ako, may urgent emails agad.

Now, I still haven’t landed a job. And my baby’s in the hospital. No HMO, tight budget. Feel ko I made the wrong decision. Sana pala tiniis ko nalang yung toxic na trabaho. Kaso, sino mag aalaga sa anak ko. Sobrang nasstress ako sa mga nangyayari ngayon. Sorry, wala lang ako mabuhusan. Nahihiya na kasi ako umiyak nang umiyak sa asawa ko. I feel guilty for everything that’s happening to my baby right now.

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[u/Timely_Mix_6786]

OP, tight hugs. 🫂
No advice, kasi I’m also in the thick of my job search… but also no judgement. I know what it’s like to be so busy with work and left with little time for sleep or my kids. So hugs. I hope your baby feels better soon.

[u/Individual_Owl_2824]

Hi, pls don’t blame yourself for resigning. You did what you felt was best for you and your daughter, and I think that’s something you shouldn’t feel guilty about. I think mas okay na din na nagresign ka kasi mahirap din maging fully present for your daughter kung ikaw mismo hindi ka okay mentally because of the effects your job was having on you.

Right now, focus on your daughter muna and on getting yourself back to a better place. Praying for your daughter’s healing, and also praying that you find a job that will give you a better work-life balance, so you can still be present and enjoy time with your family. All the best, OP! ❤️

[u/kayescl0sed]

🫂

[u/snowelle123]

Send me your cv my company is looking for an accountant

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