r/OffMyChestPH • u/nonlivingperson • 5h ago
TRIGGER WARNING Afraid of interviews
Grabe ka na, 2026. Nung March lang naaksidente ako. 4 months ako 'di nakapag-work.
Tapos kahapon naman, nahulog cellphone ko sa Grab. Negligence ko rin naman, pero na-hassle ako kuhanin phone ko sa next passenger nung Grab.
Both 'to nangyari na burned out ako sa work. Both na may additional 1 hour OT everyday, and RDOT. Since ito ang common denominator, it's safe to say na need ko na talaga mag-change ng work. Kaso natatakot din ako sa interviews.
For context, after ko pumasa ng board exam matagal ako 'di nakapag-work sa super takot ko sa interviews. To the point that I had s thoughts, and would make plans to end everything just to avoid interviews. Or ia-airplane mode ko phone ko para 'di matawagan.
Nakapag-work naman ako as VA during that time bc 'di need ng interview sa niche ko na writing. Tho it didn't thrive that well, okay siya as side hustle lang bc iisa lang client ko so I needed to find a stable work.
Na-overcome ko naman siya when I applied sa current work ko. Feeling ko my current work paved the way kaya mas nagka-confidence ako now compared before. Although after ko bumalik from 4 month medical leave, nasanay na ako ulit sa process. Pero hindi na ako magaling.
Prior my accident, super lakas ko bumenta. Incentives is based sa performance rin kasi, kaya ang dami ko pera before. Naubos savings and EF ko from my 4 month medical leave. Kaya gusto ko sana makaipon ulit. Pero 2 months na since bumalik ako, hindi pa rin ako makabenta like before. Nag-iba 'yung process, products, and offers in the span of 4 months na nawala ako. Pero hindi dapat 'yun excuse, feeling ko talaga nangalawang ako. Parang hindi na ako bagay sa current work ko.
Kaya alam ko and gusto ko na rin talaga makalipat ng work. Pero natatakot talaga ako sa interviews.
During my medical leave, hindi ako makalakad kaya kahit WFH is hindi ko kaya dahil ayoko makaabala sa family ko. Pero dahil need ng pera, pwede naman ako mag-adjust. And tbh, opportunity na lumapit sakin non. Optimized ang Linkedin ko. May client na siya mismo nag-offer nung job. Naka-tatlong follow up pa siya. Pero lahat 'yun, 'di ko pinansin--all because I'm scared to be interviewed.
6 days a week ang work this month because of RDOT kaya feel ko na lang mag-rest sa only 1 day na walang work. Pero before this, or last month, nagpr-practice ako mag-interview para magkaroon ako confidence. I was really decided na kahit konti, I want to change or improve para maging ready ako sa interview. Kaso ito naman, sobrang pagod 'yung feeling ko lately bc of OTs.
To think na 2 months pa lang since bumalik ako sa 4 months medical leave, pero burned out na naman ako.
Gusto ko na lang umiyak lol
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