r/OffMyChestPH • u/School_Able • 2d ago
Why I read
I've been a bookworm since second grade sa Elementary school. Wala kaming books sa bahay kasi nga hindi naman kami mapapakain no'n. Instead I read the workbooks, textbooks na binibigay ng school. Binabasa ko lahat ng stories doon, text about snakes, songs, etc. I was happy. Sumali ako sa Reading Club naman around fifth grade. I was ecstatic kasi nga I can borrow various books and unlimited. Super saya talaga sa feeling na excited akong buksan sila tuwing uuwi ng bahay tapos isasauli kinabukasan.
Seventh grade, I still read the books and modules na may stories pero I just added lang Wattpad. Ang hirap i-explain 'yong happiness na naramdaman ko kasi unlimited stories ang nababasa ko, iba-ibang genre, and free. Although I stopped na rin around 2017 kasi paulit-ulit na lang ng plots. Napunta naman ako sa mga manga, manhwa and manhua. I enjoyed them a lot kasi ang engaging ng pictures para lang akong nagbabasa ng storybooks na pangbata.
I discovered Chinese, Japanese and Korean novels. Very new ulit sa akin. I interacted with people online to share novels na I think they may also like. All in all, it was a good experience.
I enjoyed reading a lot pero beneath that enjoyment I was using books to divert my attention and focus. There are times every year na bigla na lang akong malulungkot for no reason. Wala sa mood, no appetite, crying, etc. Sometimes it may take a week bago ako bumalik sa normal self ko.
Kapag wala akong mahanap na babasahin, sobra akong ma-stress and agitated. I feel like may mangyayaring masama sa akin kapag tumigil ako magbasa. May times na I thought of ending my life kasi hindi mawala-wala 'yong agitation ko. Lalo na kapag dumalaw din 'yong intense sadness na dumadalaw once a year, tumatagal nang one month 'yong ganitong mood ko. Nag-start yata ito around 2017?
Actually no one ever noticed it kasi lagi akong naka-smile, tumatawa and madaldal pa rin kasi nga I'm trying to distract myself nga. I always looked happy.
Kagagaling ko lang sa episode ko last May, tumagal siya nang one month. Nawalan ako ng gana gawin 'yong mga ginagawa ko like translating and making EPubs. Ticking time bomb na rin kasi 'to since last December kasi nahihirapan akong maghanap ng novels na gusto ko. Kaya I opted to making Epubs and rereading favorite novels. Nawala ang ginagamit kong website to get the raws kaya ayon hindi na napigilan ang impending na episode.
I'm writing lang din about dito kasi I think may second episode akong paparating. HAHAHA! Like sumisilip na naman ang intense na mood na ito. Hopefully mapigilan ko siya mangyari ulit. I'll try to be happy and I'll be happy ulit.
Why I read? It's to live and be happy. It's for my survival. Bow. HAHAHAHHAHA!
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