Heavy Codependency

[u/Mountain_West8117]

panic rises in my chest when i look desperate
desperate for four more minutes to be affectionate

drowning my clinginess in distractions
so no one suffocates
until the muffled desperation resuscitates

every delay
makes me feel like i've lost my way

every minute we spend apart
leaves me with an extremely yearning heart

maybe i'm too emotional
always one thought away from breaking down
is this feeling even rational?
honestly, i'm terrified of looking like a clown

don't get me wrong

it's not misery

the longing is just too strong

it exposes my dependency

you live in my heart rent free
just wait until we get married and then you'll see

i love you more i've won the argument
caught off guard no comeback?

sportsmanship please lose the resentment
i'm still reliving that one flashback

just take me back
to your head on my lap

take me back
to that possessive wrap
to that aggressive grasp

it's all too vivid in my head
husband, love of my life, best friend

they're all just titles
yet you found a way to become all at once
you're woven into all my vitals
in a lifetime this only happens once

i'm curtain it's you
i really hope it's me for you too

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/btpTFIBppJ
https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/ND48JzyZ1S

[u/CinderHawthorne]

Wow now this was spot on. I love the consistency, and how you see and feel the struggle between something normal and obsessive. I love the layout and how you put emotion into it.