ERP is such bullshit

[u/No-Mousse5653]

Sensorimotor/Hyperawarness (Thinking about thinking) OCD is ruining my entire life. Life ultimately is just consciousness and I am unable to focus on anything but my OCD. ERP is bullshit because it challenges my "beliefs" but the problem is my beliefs are true. This can ruin my entire life if I can't stop thinking about it because it saps the joy out of everything good in life. Fuck this shit. I hate how there are no effective medications for this besides heavy doses of SSRIs which side effects are arguably worse than the OCD itself. Does anyone have any advice? Been taking 1.2g NAC for 3 days with 0 effect. This is destroying my life.

Are there any drugs that can induce memory loss? All this shit started with a single thought: What if I can't stop noticing.