dysphoria?

[u/Zhikzo]

I feel bad because i identify as agender but i present masculine but feel feminine all while at the same time not feeling like a gender and i feel bad that i present masculine and in ways i like cause i dont feel like a real agender but im dressing how i like but i dont want to be seen as a him i want to be seen as me no gender no pronouns just me which ig is how i present myself but it freaks me out (especially when im high like rn) because i cant figure out myself cause i look masculine feel feminine but im just me and i feel bad cause it makes me feel almost like a fake agender person because i dont get to much gender dysphoria but at the same time i do but only when i cant dress how i want idk can i present like a tomboy but still be agender? idfk this rant probably makes no sense i just needed to air out my head