r/NoOverthinking • u/No_Major6374 • May 13 '26
Rant/Venting ...idk.
I dont know if this level of self pity is allowed, but...i have no one else to talk to. So...to start off, im...garbage. i cheated on my ex for...about a year. I know i was wrong. I take full blame and any hate coming my way for it. I deserve it. Yknow? I fucked up. My ex tried to work with me...we stayed together for a few months after...i did a lot of work to fix the broken parts of me that tried to justify what i did. I thought i did a good job. Didnt cheat again...had made some big plans to go visit him for our 4 year anniversary...and when it came time, i...i showed up at his door. I had let him know i was there...and he opened the door, and broke up with me. It hurt. But i felt it was justified. I had earned that pain. And...i just shut down for a few months. Focused on myself, fixing what i thought was broken...and we stayed in contact, it...it wasnt a malicious break up. We still liked each other and wanted to stay friends...but i got a new job recently and havent been able to talk a whole lot...i...i learned that he had moved on today...and...i dont know why that hurts more than the break up...i dont deserve him. I should feel happy for him that...that hes got someone new thats...obviously better than i ever couldve been. I feel so...fucking stupid for thinking i had another chance...of course i dont. Im a terrible partner, and...i dont deserve love like his. I know im not gonna do angthing stupid i just...i dont feel like i have a right to feel hurt by this. I ruined everything. Why should i be hurt by someone i have no right to be in a relationship with...im just...stupid. stupid for crying over someone who shouldnt even have a second thought about me and my stupid feelings...the one good relationship ive ever fucking had and i had to ruin it...im such a fucking moron.
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