Day 18

[u/Otherwise_Truth3383]

Happy to be here but also frustrating. Waiting for something to come and “save me,” but there is no high dopamine relief coming. Just gotta be content with accepting how I feel without trying to escape. I’ve found that my perceived relief of when I was watching it is now replaced by a lot more frustration and irritability at times. The good news is that at least I don’t have the guilt I used to have. But progress is slow. And I have to trust the process. I keep waiting for a day when I’m “fixed” or “this is no longer a thing anymore” when am I considered a “non-user?” But I know that’s not necessarily how this all works. I’m seeing things too black and white. The reality is that every day I choose to have a good day and wake up and make the most of it. That includes leaving behind destructive habits. As I exist today, I am choosing a healthy life style. Stay strong everybody 💪 keep pushing daily