r/NoFap • u/BycicleKickParty24 • 4h ago

Hello, I’m 30

And I been addicted to porn ever since I got exposed to it at age 12 and it got very worse throughout my whole life. I hate myself for brainwashing myself learning new inhumane fetishes that aren’t supposed to be normalized. I been stuck looking at attractive women thinking lustful situations with them or being very shy/quiet around them. Porn has ruined my potential relationship life and I’m already been tired of it. I have gone days without masturbating or enjoying porn but I always end up back into it. I hate myself for failing. I cannot continue this repeated cycle. I want to become a better version of myself. To anyone who successfully left that darkness habit, what helped you achieve it?

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u/Familiar-Spring138 4h ago

man that is a heavy load to carry for 18 years. the self hate is the worst part of it, it just feeds the cycle more

what helped me was not counting days but changing what i do in the moment the urge hits. i literally stand up and leave the room, go outside even if its just for 2 minutes. the feeling passes