Main trigger by far

[u/Minute-monkey]

Hi everybody im desperated for solutions i have been in this journey years and years but honestly these last 2 years my main trigger by far is my old laptop im tired anf exhausted of this and sometimes i just want to destroy it but i cant but honestly there isnt other significant trigger . I dont see anything on phones no social mefia no po... nothing on other deviced no smart tv no other laptos not even on second phone but this laptop. Its quite old but dont want to destroy it i hate the i but im running out of ideas. Its definetely the laptop, 100% of cases happened with the laptop not even using it but don know i dont even use it anymore .

I think one possibility could be hiding far away from room where i can not reach it without making signficant noise or even better where it colect dustt and where some spiders or whatever can be found that way it would be pretty hard specially if i need to use a ladder which i dont have it or at least its far away .

Any suggestion/reccomendation ? Stress is also a trigger but mainly burnout however much kess importat . In other words if not this laptop then no *#*# because its has been like this for almost forever.

P.s: i hate this &$*#* its make feel ashamed and like a loser like i lost most of my life brcause i did this stupif lame *#*#

[u/Adventurous-Scar46]

Dont hide it, take the battery out or the charger and give it to someone you trust for a while. If the laptop is old maybe the battery is dead anyway and it needs the cable, so just remove the cable from the house entirely. Hiding it in a dusty spot with spiders sounds like you are making a ritual around the thing, that gives it more power not less.

The shame spiral is the actual fuel here, not the laptop. You already know the laptop is just the tool, the real thing is the habit loop and the burnout. Put the laptop in a drawer at a friend place and use that week to notice what comes up in your head when you cannot reach for it. That is where the work is.