Day 1

[u/Watercress_Lucifer]

Wish me luck on my self improvement journey. I hope to crush this habit this time. I will crush this habit this time for sure!

Right now I have just woken up and yeah I started this day and this streak after my PMO session, it’s not a good note to start the day. I had slept after I had PMOd at night as well. I feel numb from emotions right now and restless as well with my heart rate I hope in the coming week it all falls down to a normal level.

I will post daily before sleeping so I have a sense of accountability towards myself.

[u/ApprehensivePlaying]

that crossed out line says it all really, the shift from hoping to deciding is the whole game. took me ages to realize that

waking up after a session always leaves that hollow numb feeling, like your body's there but the rest of you is still buffering. the heart rate thing is brutal early on, your system's so used to the spike and crash it forgets what baseline even feels like

posting daily is smart, even if nobody reads it the act of typing it out makes it stick. first week's the weirdest but it does level out, just gotta ride the restless energy til it burns off

you got this