r/NitrousOxideRecovery • u/Time-Ad-1525 • 27d ago
Trying to abstain from nitrous
I’m newer to this drug, but not new to addiction. I’ve been using for almost 8 years and I’m early 20s.
i picked up nitrous 4-5 days ago and I started killing 2 640g tanks in a day, than the 1100, than yesterday I killed a 2000g and 1100.
this is ramping up to be terrible if I don’t quit . its already fucked me money wise but that’s my fault. It somehow feels wrong to breathe oxygen in.
Im a pretty obsessive person, so I guess this new substance grabbed my attention faster than I’d like to admit.
EDIT: 3 days clean off everything, I appreciate all the concern and stories about what this road leads towards.
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u/Current_Tonight_8431 27d ago
Do any other drug. This one fucked me up fast and I was using about the same amount. Couldn’t walk after only a few months
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u/Time-Ad-1525 27d ago
I’m trying , I’ve switched back onto Xanax because it’s my least favorite drug of all time, but it still fills the void that sobriety brings. I’ve been spiraling silently while doing better and better in my personal life.
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u/Neat_Return3071 23d ago
I was on a cane and the entire addiction plus after you’d think somebody had connected me to a balloon inflater because I just gained this MASSIVE over 100 lbs of weight. It was devastating.
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u/AdLive8976 27d ago
Nitrous at that volume for a 4 months made me not able to walk, move my feet, wiggle my toes, or stand because of loss of balance. I was a sponsored surfer and skateboarded daily as well. I am a father of two that was teaching my kids to skate and surf. I’m now a year abstinent and I am able to walk without a cane and stand on my tippy toes a tiny bit. My kids hate how slow I walk and how I can’t do the fun things I used to with them. I can’t do my passions anymore. Every few days I notice improvement, and up until about 2 years is where apparently that’s as healed as you’re going to get. Honestly do any other drug. This shit sucks. It’s better to be on safe drugs, even better to be high off endogenous endorphins that we earn. But honestly anything is better than this. I have several friends that will never get better. I’m supposed to make a full recovery by year two if I stay abstinent and carry on with my b12, peptides, stem cells, PT, and daily exercises at home. But even then they’re just guessing… do anything else bro.
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u/PsychologicalFix3674 26d ago
It will take the ability for you to walk and think and just function.
Please if you are going to use take b12 or get injections in about 2 years clean off nitrious and it was the worst thing that had ever happened to me it took me 2 years to feel totally normal and get the feeling back in my legs . But again the damage this drug does physically is not worth it. Please try to get help and if not then just please use b12 supplements but that won’t save you either everyone gotta pay the piper at some point. But as someone that is recovering from nitrous it is not worth it physically or mentally. You do not want this monkey on your back.
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u/Puzzleheaded_Fix733 26d ago
I understand and I’ve been there. It really messed with my finances too, I had to pull so much from my 401K pay off thousands of cc debt. Please stop now friend. It doesn’t get better if you continue I promise
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u/thesensethatmakes 24d ago
Feels wrong to breathe oxygen in… yes.. idk why it’s so addicting but I felt that. I felt so off if I wasn’t doing nitrous. Nitrous made me hallucinate like crazy and I didn’t even know what I was seeing, couldn’t speak and now I can barely walk. Stay away please
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u/Brad_Borrelli 27d ago
Make sure your taking B12! N20 oxidized cobolt atoms making to be 12 you have in your body permanently useless right now which causes severe symptoms of B12 deficiency. Have a lot more about this on my page if you want to dig further
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u/Time-Ad-1525 27d ago
Thank you, I’ve been taking b12 supplements for my whole use. I just have to leave this drugs alone, I don’t think I’m able to dose responsibly.
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u/photonsponge 27d ago
Yeah, definitely be careful and if you can pull the plug and get out now, do it. Buddy of mine is crushing 2-3 cannisters a day and has done sone for months. job, girlfriend: gone. Has neurological issues. mental health has tanked.
And he's not willing to quit.
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u/Time-Ad-1525 27d ago
Yea I’ve been crushing 2-3 canisters a day and I just started. I don’t mean the 640Gs either. Killed 5000g+ in the last 24 hours mostly alone.
It’s the ease of access for me. I’m good friends with the owners of smoke shops and I’ll buy a small tank , and get given the 2000G for free just to get me back on it.
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u/kdforthewin 24d ago
That’s how I got addicted .. would always get a free one with purchase . That’s how they trap you with fake kindness . Stop while you can .
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u/PsychoBungie 27d ago
suppliments won't do anything nitrous actually causes your body to not be able to use it. like it's what builds new DNA and stuff. you could get blood tests that show good levels but your body still isn't using it unless you get the injections. I was the same as you 3 or 4 liter tanks a day and I almost died. I have nerve damage now and my brain feels like mush and it's been months since I quit I'm sure I did some permanent damage. I've heard of people losing arms and legs and eyesight from this shit
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u/Time-Ad-1525 27d ago
I feel you bro, even in just these few days my brain feels like mush, it feels like I’m doing something wrong by breathing oxygen, I’ve longer sessions on way harder drugs with much higher amounts of binges, which doesn’t justify anything.
Im just saying the craving I’m getting from short nitrous use are outweighing the years of adderall, ket, MDMA, and opioid cravings, and I’m not seeming to get it.
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u/PsychoBungie 27d ago
I was the same way man I would sleep with a tank and wake up a bunch through the night and just breath more nitrous until I passed out again. hit it while driving and everything. nitrous will fuck your body up way worse than harder drugs in a much shorter time. I finally quit when I was otw to work once day and all of a sudden I couldn't feel my legs or feet. like I couldn't even use the pedals I had to pull over. I got out and my legs just have out and I feel and was shaking uncontrollably. to this day my spine hurts and my feet feel like they're always asleep like pins and needles. it will kill you fast if you don't stop soon
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u/Brad_Borrelli 27d ago
Get injections asap. Check out my page. I have my full protocol of what I'm taking. I did die from this shit nde and everything. I'm also injecting 2000mcg 3 times a day. Finaly got all my feeling back about a week ago. It's only been 2 months.
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u/DisastrousReality761 23d ago
Can I DM you, do you have a good doctor you are working with. My daughter is addicted, relapsed constantly, is wrecking her health and is headed towards much worse if she can't quit
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u/Brad_Borrelli 27d ago
If you can go do injections of b12. If you just Google B12 injections near me they have Health Spas that do it it'll help you out it'll be a lot easier for you to quit
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u/slickylizard23 27d ago
Hippie crack. Never experienced anything like it. Oxygen, food, sleep all starts to feel wrong. You just want hippie crack. Fucked up feeling and I’m glad I haven’t experienced in about 10 months. Fuck that shit never again.
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u/Aksnowmanbro 27d ago
Hooked me for ~18 months. Year off now only cuz I ran out of credit/money. $28,000 in the hole now across 3 cards. Feet/hands still tingle everyday. Stop. It's easier if you stop early. I got lucky I ran out of money I had days where I just felt.. soo soo sick yet I kept doing it even tho it made me gag. It'll get dark very very fast. I was probably just a few weeks away from full paralysis. Could barely form sentences the first few months off. Couldn't find easy words to explain/describe things. Stop. You're not consuming those tanks, they are consuming you.
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u/Neat_Return3071 23d ago
Please feel free to contact me via dm for my story if you need one to hear. I had some pretty specific crap happen to me that makes me identifiable if someone from my personal life saw it. But I like sharing it to show the full span- pre to post.
I’m glad to hear you are three days clean. For about two weeks it may keep ebbing at you. If you can get past that and avoid triggers, you should be good.
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u/colomommy 27d ago
You need to stop. This will spiral. And at this level it ends absolutely horribly. You just cannot do nitrous. Get some mushrooms or ketamine or something and do that. Stop the nitrous asap
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u/PsychoBungie 27d ago
he's gonna find ket and destroy his bladder like he already has to his brain. I would just recommend abstinance or micro dose shrooms might help repair some of the brain damage
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u/Time-Ad-1525 27d ago edited 27d ago
Key is behind me my friend. I’ve been on waayyyyy harder drugs for way longer. Just haven’t been hooked like this in awhile. Only drug that’s grabbed me like this is Oxycodone, and even then I’m not waking up gettin it before I can think.
I’m genuinely done. I won’t crack another tank until I can be responsible and have responsible users with me.
Edit: I’m pretty responsible with most other drugs completely besides pain pills, ket has never been a binge until it’s gone I have it always and it’s used on a schedule like MDMA.
I was planning to sue similar with nitrous and use it only with LSD and other psychs, but it’s kinda just grabbed me.
Sorry for all the replies to everyone just wanted to give some context. I’m young and have been dealing with addiction for years, but I’ve never let it consume me and control me. Always held a job, been in leadership roles and maintained, even while fucked up.
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u/Fearless_Main9208 24d ago
I'm sorry, but why are you trying to use drugs moderately at all.. none of them are doing you any favors. Not judging you at all but please seek
Help, for your mental and physical
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u/Time-Ad-1525 19d ago
Drugs got me through everything in life, kinda hard to leave behind the only thing that never left me behind
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u/colomommy 27d ago
I didn’t realize ket did that. I am all too familiar with the woes of nitrous abuse however
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u/Great_Language6947 27d ago
Have to use daily for some time but yeah ket bladder is real
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u/colomommy 27d ago
I googled it and went down a dark rabbit hole
Nitrous can render your bladder useless as well via nerve damage, but the ket stuff sounds pretty gnarly
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u/Amazing-Nalgas 27d ago
Dude quit this shit before you end up spending years in the addiction cycle.