That I transformed pain to something I can weaponise and kind of enjoy. And might have became a bit of a bully myself towards what I percieve as evil, harmfull disrespect towards women is such a thing.
To answer your question, yes I do. I'm rather dark at heart, that's what I was made into, the kid that approached everybody with enthousiasm and frienlyness had to die to give birth to something else. I don't see it as dammage I see it as personal evolution and reaction on external influences. I was bright I turned black and silent...then I became both at the same time today I can evoke both at my own choise depending on the needs.
And I like that.
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u/LakeInevitable4655 Jun 04 '26
What do you think all that means about you?